How I Prep For A New Semester At Uni:

My biggest flex is my privacy. I don't feel the need to let everyone know what I'm up to. Whether I've been doing well or not, I choose only one to three people to tell my stuff to. Other times I don't even tell anyone about how I'm doing at the moment unless someone asks. I value my privacy and it's one of the most best gifts I provide myself.

20 May 2023- and we're back to the decadents! read the yellow book for pleasure, and read about the yellow book for research. not the most multifarious day, but a very fun one nonetheless.

[ 18th september, 2023 • 8/145 days of uni ]

stuff is being done, even if everything else is still pretty messy,, volleyball practice was amazing, though! i haven't had that much fun playing in a very long while. still have a long way to go before i match the rest of the team in terms of skill, but i'm happy nonetheless :))

i get so emotional when people acknowledge me when they don't need to like when i realise that i am a part of people's lives like idk not in a self-obsessed way but i feel like i spent a lot of time in my head and by myself that i forget myself in relation to others sometimes so it's really nice when people send me a little text or call me randomly <3

09/17-18/23 ∘ day 6-7/100

it's been one week of this challenge and i'm slowly starting to get my a grip on my life. sun-mon i started training again, which felt really good, even though i can still feel some injuries. i'm also making progress on history, currently studying ch. 3/7.

i once again took a good look of my personal study plan. with my current schedule, which i'm working very hard to keep up on, i'll be done with history by the end of the week. next week i'll finish my literature course, and i've started working on my next math course, even though there are still a couple trigonometry assignments i should get done, or just decide to not do them and turn the course in. i think i'll give myself this week for the deadline and turn it in with the history course.

☽ my next goals ☾

theory ch. 3 (history) exercises ch. 1-3 (history) study diary assignment ch.1 (history) study diary (literature) book blog assignment (literature) ex. 1-19 (math) book ex. 1-22 (math)

shoutout to the people that like learning, who love learning, who want to learn and understand and create things on their own terms, but can’t go to college/university. not for lack of money or access (although those are obviously valid and understandable), but because their disabilities prevent them from doing it. who don’t have enough spoons to take a university course and complete the amount of mental and physical work it entails. who are too anxious to leave home and don’t have the resources to combat that anxiety. who get burned out quickly and easily and can’t handle the amount of effort university takes. it’s not your fault and does not determine your worth - you are allowed to do what makes you comfortable. for those that mourn the loss of their college experience, i understand and your feelings are valid. whatever the reason may be, i see you.

Honestly, I miss undergrad me. Like where is the girl who took 18+ hours a semester, worked 30 hours a week, and suffered tragedy after tragedy and yet still got all of my work done and done well. Now I can’t even  concentrate…

here’s a shout out to all the students who pulled through during this chaotic year - and whether you are satisfied with how you did or not, please know that grades do not define you or your worth and that you should feel proud of yourself no matter what <3

This morning I took myself for breakfast and spent until midday in the same spot reading The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath and working on a short story.