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“Everything you want is on the other side of fear.”

— Jack Canfield

trust never came naturally to me before, but now it is like a language i knew all along. i know that you will be there when i get home. that you will answer the phone when i call. that if everything falls apart, i will still have you. every day with you i am learning and i am growing into the person that i have always wanted to be. like a tree finally deemed worthy of watering, i grow.

Yom HaShoah

Yom HaShoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day) begins this year on sundown on April 27th, 2022 and ends sundown, April 28th.

The ADL's Audito of Antisemitic Incidents for 2021 released just yesterday, reporting hate crimes in the United States at an all-time high since they began recording in 1979. (A 34% increase from 2020.) Jews make up less than 3% of the United States population (0.2% globally) and remain the biggest target of religion-based hate crimes in the US both in raw numbers and per capita.

Now is a good time to check in on your Jewish friends and support your Jewish communities. If you are able, I highly encourage supporting a charity that helps Shoah survivors (most of whom still live alone and in poverty) or putting money directly into the hands of Jews in need or local Jewish organizations.

It's also a good time to analyze the way we talk about the Holocaust. This article about The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas highlights common problematic tropes to look out for in other works. If you can I HIGHLY encourage getting a copy of People Love Dead Jews by Dara Horn. It's a collection of well-written essays tackling the world's fascination with dead Jews, how Jewish history is exploited to comfort the living, becoming dehumanizing even when done with the best of intentions. It's sharp, insightful, powerful, poignant, and deeply disturbing. For Jewish readers, this helped me put to words things I always felt uncomfortable about but could never articulate why; it's very cathartic in many ways. For others, this is a great window into how it often feels being Jewish in a world that hates Jews, showcasing nuances of modern-day antisemitism I've never seen tackled elsewhere. I cannot recommend it enough; I consider it a must-read.

“I’m not into convincing people I’m worthy. I’m into people who’ll convince me on my worst days that I’m still worth the world.”

— Reyna Biddy

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𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒚𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒄𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 & 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒖𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆.

featuring channeled songs & messages.

hello there, my beautiful beings! so, i wanted to do a reading of you & your future spouse as a disney couple, but spirit was adamant on giving me the dynamics of you and your future spouse. i don't know why, but it was getting very specific & nitpicky instructions in my head. here are a few important points you might want to know: for this reading we have nine different piles, counting from left to right. i would not recommend choosing more than one or two, since the energies might be very contrasting. again, please follow your intuition & choose what best fits you. take what resonates. i have choosen a gender neutral approach to this reading, so even if you are a man who loves men / a woman who loves women, you can still choose any of the piles below. for every pile, i shuffled ONE tarot card to better channel its energy & represent you and your spouse's dynamics.

pile #1: six of swords & ten of swords (spirit wanted me to pull one more card for this reading).

i think you will meet your future spouse after some heartbreak or an ending of sorts, but it does not have to be the romantic kind. given i got two swords cards, the energy i’m getting is that you will be letting go of a lot of limiting beliefs with your future spouse, like it’ll be reinvigorating to believe in love again and you’ll be each other’s healer. being in their presence will feel like this blue imagery in the pile you’ve chosen: very healing, very soothing, very calming. i am getting divine masculine & divine feminine energies for this pile, but any genders apply, these are simply the energies. i think there is a very high chance you have met your future spouse in a past life, pile #1. it’ll feel like home. familiar, calming, soothing. like a rainbow after the storm to reassure you everything will be okay. maybe you’ll have given up on love and just as quickly as that, they show up to remind you there are really great things in this world & romantic love can be one of them.

channeled songs, words & messages: love again by dua lipa, let me in by gabrielle aplin, 777, dance with the one that brought you by shania twain, healing, heartbreak, dark night of the soul, beautiful skies, camping, blue.

pile #2: page of pentacles.

the page of pentacles can be interpreted as a manifestation card. pile #2, i think you and your future spouse will have manifested one another. both of you will feel very abundant and satisfied with one another. ‘everything i have ever wanted’, i’m hearing. it’s kind of like a dream come true for both of you. it’ll feel so dreamy, i think you will build a very beautiful & traditional life together. i think they’ll be exactly your type and vice-versa, and it’ll be hard to get them out of your mind once you two meet. the relationship might move a little fast, so be careful not to rush in whoever is it you are manifesting. let it flow & come naturally. you and your future spouse will be smitten with one another, like two teenagers discovering the world. you will feel like you have never loved anyone like this before, almost like you didn’t know what love was before you met your person.

channeled songs, words & messages: teenage dream by katy perry, barbie movies (?), rose colored glasses, amethyst, abundance, gold rich, 24k magic by bruno mars.

pile #3: queen of wands.

i’m hearing the lyrics to ‘can’t take my eyes off of you’ covered by shawn mendes. the queen of wands is a super passionate, feisty card! both of you and your future spouse will be very independent, but i think once you come home to one another, you might not be able to get your hands off of each other. i think it’ll start out so passionately, you might not even notice you caught feelings for this person. maybe you’ll start off as something physical and as the time progresses, you’ll realize this is the person you want to spend your life with. you and your future spouse might have a very argumentative side, so you might have to learn to compromise for the sake of the relationship, but i think you’ll love one another like a fire that never stops burning. the two of you might give off a little bit of a power couple energy, like mr. and mrs. smith, very hot and also super intimidating! you’ll probably be very protective of one another (especially if you are a lgbt+ couple, i’m hearing) and you’ll want to make plans with them for everything in life.

channeled songs, words & messages: ‘you turn me on’, from dusk ‘till dawn, dancing together, food wars, laughing until you cry, angel on fire by halsey.

pile #4: four of cups.

honestly, i had a little bit of a hard time with the four of cups showing up, because it can represent apathy and also contemplation, when you don’t care about the new opportunities presented to you. you might be emotionally unavailable by the time you meet your future spouse, pile #4. maybe this will drive them crazy. you might have this ‘uninterested’, ‘unbothered’ look about you that they’ll love and they’ll probably want you so bad that they won’t care about this first impression. i think they’ll chase you a lot and you’ll feel so wanted around them. like you’ll never have to guess where you stand with this person, because they’ll always make it clear they want you and you may not even be impressed at first, but eventually you might open up to their charms. i’m hearing ‘opposites attract’, so that might be relevant. maybe one of you is a huge extrovert, while the other is an introvert and a homebody. i’m getting famous vibes for some reason, so you might not give them the time of the day because either them or you are famous in a field and it comes with this “uninterested” first impression from you. this seems very endearing, pile #4. make sure to give love a chance when it knocks on your door!

channeled songs, words & messages: ‘why won’t you love me’, leo sun / moon, life of the party by shawn mendes, lucky 13, ‘everybody loves you’, ‘how do you like me now’.

pile #5: six of cups.

oh gosh, pile #5! this is so beautiful, i needed to take a moment. i think you and your future spouse will have a very playful, but traditional relationship. like one moment you’ll be flirting and then the next you might playfully insult them or tease them. it feels so so joyful. i think life will be kind of an adventure with them and you will never feel bored. do you have many fire or sagittarius placements, pile #5? i’m not sure why i asked you that, but i feel like you and your person will have fun in so many different ways. maybe dancing under the stars or even in the rain. i feel like smiling until my cheeks hurt, so you might not be able to contain your joy when you’re around them. both of you might even have the same sense of humor, love the same romantic comedies or movies and maybe you’ll even spam one another with memes and such. this seems like such a wholesome, pure energy, i want to bask in it. like two puppies eternally in love. they might even look at you with puppy eyes once you two meet and they’ll never stop wanting to hold your hand, i’m hearing, pile #5.

channeled songs, words & messages: ‘when we were young’ by adele, polaroids, old country songs, roadtrips, golden retrievers, smiling cheek to cheek, frank sinatra playing in the background.

pile #6: the moon.

wow, you got a major arcana, pile #6! honestly, i think you’ll have a very intuitive relationship with your & your future spouse. kind of like the two lovers dancing in the picture, both of you will be so in tune with one another’s feelings and bodies that it will feel like slow dancing. i think loving them will be kind of like being in a nostalgic movie, like maybe audrey hepburn & james dean, i’m hearing? you’ll take so many beautiful pictures of one another. perhaps one or both of you are very artistic & you’ll be each other’s ‘muse’. i think a lot of things in life will make sense when you meet them, like a soft “oh” when you realize why certain things happened the way they did. honestly, i would not be surprised if you were also soulmates / divine counterparts. you’ll find so much meaning in life, like everything will be richer with them. life will be full of mysteries for you and your s.o. to discover and unfold and you might find yourself become more spiritual and conscious of your path once you two meet one another.

channeled songs, words & messages: ‘pose like this’, paintbrush & paint stains, jazz and blues, dancing under a blue moon, a black cat, berets, paris in the rain by lauv.

pile #7: the devil.

another major arcana popped up for a different pile & i’m not surprised, pile #7. i know the devil might seem like a scary or “negative” card, but the truth of it depends on how we interpret things. i think there will be an intense physical attraction between both of you, pile #7, but maybe either one or both of you won’t be able to make a move. maybe because of physical distance or even societal factors, both of you might feel like each other’s “forbidden fruit”, but i’m not getting it in a bad way at all. you might have been drawn to pile #3 as well, since i think it might be a more developed version of you two together later in the future. but whatever restrictions and limitations you two might face, it’s like you cannot escape one another either. this feels very fated, pile #7. i’m getting an extra message for my lgbtq+ readers that your future spouse longs for you just as you long for them, even if you might not be able to get married in your country, you will find your freedom and your peace with one another despite the oppression and difficulties you two might face before your relationship is established. spirit is asking you not to give up on yourself and who you love. i know this message was very specific, but i think you and your future spouse need to hear that love is possible, despite the world’s and society’s imposing beliefs on us. and once you two get to be together, it’ll be pure bliss. heaven, i’m feeling.

channeled songs, words & messages: ‘it’s you & me’, ‘i can’t escape the way i love you’, star crossed lovers, ‘juliet, the dice was loaded from the start’ (romeo & juliet by dire straits).

pile #8: the hierophant.

hello, pile #8! i’m loving this energy, it feels very lighthearted. i think you and your future spouse will have a more balanced, very stable dynamic. like a very grounded and cozy, comfortable relationship. maybe you are already in a committed relationship and you are wondering if this is your future spouse! i think both of you will have built something very solid, but not without your own hardships and struggles. you’ll have something super traditional, with kids and a huge house and plenty of roadtrips to their grandparents’ place, i’m hearing? there is also this energy of both of you fulfilling each one of the roles in a very balanced manner. like say you are a woman with a man, he will want to open the door for you or give you flowers & you might want to cook for him or even dress up fancier for a date. the two of you will have something quite traditional & others might overlook your relationship. perhaps it’ll seem boring to some of your friends or family members, but this energy is very soft and grounded, i feel like it’s the perfect combination of water & earth, so maybe you or your future spouse have significant earth / water placements. i’m getting cancer and taurus specifically, so you might want to check that out!

channeled songs, words & messages: ‘the house we built’, the color beige, soft vanilla ice cream, picnic dates, ‘i met you when i was 17’, ‘it’s always been you’.

pile #9: seven of cups.

last but not least, pile #9! seven is a very holy number and i just want to start off by saying that you might have plenty of suitors before or even during your relationship with your future spouse. perhaps you won’t know who to go for or even who to choose, because you’ll be presented with so many possibilities that the idea of being with your future spouse might even seem far-fetched, i’m hearing? i think the road to you & your future spouse will require you to trust your intuition and your gut a lot. you might have to do some shadow work or understand what your ego want versus what your heart wants. this may have been a very odd message, but nonetheless, pile #9! you guys may be quite popular or even known, and maybe the road to your future spouse will be surprising or chaotic? i think you and your future spouse will do a lot of emotional healing on the road to one another and also while together, but it might be uncomfortable at first. the seven of cups card asks us to ground ourselves and our ideas, to stay connected to reality. perhaps this connection will bring you down to earth again. maybe you’ll be filled with so many ideas & possibilities that you and your future spouse will have a very grounding effect on one another. one thing that i am also hearing is that you might need to revisit your own expectations and standards, pile #9. make sure to let the right people in and to choose the things that will not only feel good but will also be good for you in the long run. i know this wasn’t the message for the reading, but spirit wanted me to tell you anyway. it didn't want to be too specific on you and your future spouse's dynamics & i think it wanted you to know this before anything else!

channeled songs, words & messages: not all that glitters is gold, pros & cons, subjective vs. objective reality, ‘who do you love? is it me?’ (maybe you will need to choose between this person or someone / something else), gifts.

Wtf is hook up culture? write me poems then die in a war

Why were all these posters so gay like wtf

Ah to being two communist lesbians

A Small Glimpse Of The New Year 2022

Pile 1 - Flames

There will be a material blessing reaching you in 2022. This could be an (expensive) gift, a raise in salary or the use of money (like a holiday trip) which will help you a lot and give you a sense of security.

I sense a lot of feminine energy, implying the year will more require you to react than to act, this can be a welcome change, especially if the last year(s) forced you to do many things you usually don´t like.

It will be quite a calm year for you, which might make you worry a little if this is the calm before the storm but it isn't! You will have a stable, lovely year full of serenity, do not worry about it!

Pile 2 - Forest

I have the feeling the last year(s) made you feel stuck in one place, this energy might reach over the next year but please do not worry, this will only be like this at the beginning of the year, then things will change.

I see a strong change actually, maybe you will move, maybe you will get in a relationship or you will find a new job or maybe all of this! You will definitely break out of the old routine of the last year(s).

It might be difficult at first to get used to it but in the end, you will love it, I promise. You will feel a complete change in your life and your own way of perception.

Pile 3 - Moon

At the beginning of the year, it almost seems like someone is betraying you or trying to do something behind your back, so you better watch out for that. It might break your trust in this person.

This might cause you to leave this person, this environment you´ve been living in for now. For some of you, this also indicated a move to another city. It could also indicate you leaving a certain group of your family or friends behind.

At the end of the year, you might still be looking back and wondering if you´ve done the right decision but you did, do not worry and then you will be happily moving toward.

Pile 4 - Candle

You will be making a decision in the next year which will very much influence your life and maybe even those around you. You will be the judge of something and people will follow your lead but do not worry, you will know what you´re doing.

This decision will turn your life upside down but in a very good way. It will be the change you needed all those years but maybe did not even notice.

In the end, you will be ruling your life in a way you never experienced before. You might also be leading some other people, which might indicate work as a teacher or something in that direction.

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