Generational Trauma - Blog Posts

huh why don't i feel so good *remembers the curse on my bloodline* ohhhhhh

so great to see older generations treating new ones like shit because "oh back in the days i got it much worse" bitch just because you weren’t treated with basic respect doesn't mean you are entitled to do that to others ESPECIALLY your fucking children. grow the fuck up.

My mother once told me that she would have dreams that she was attacking and yelling at her own mother.

I did not speak up about the fact that I had these same dreams about her.

I really like the dynamic between the Berzattos

didn’t you know you’d get what was coming to you?

oh come on, you had to have known. yet you still decided to act like everyone owed you something, so the world gave you it— not what you wanted but what you deserved.

i write this for you— but to say your name would give you too much power.

you’ll be buried and the world will spin on

you’ll be worm food and we will forget you, however our dna won’t. not till we break the cycle.

painted by me, based on art I saw on Google (below), don't know the artists, if anyone does, please let me know so I can credit them

My new first-time ever therapist attacked me today 🙄 You don't need to peg my entire lift down in one chart ma'am. Even if it is all somewhat VERY true.

Growing up watching the women in my family go through this and take it out on their kids, I refuse to follow in their footsteps. Single life until I find someone worthy. No I will not "lower my standards" as they keep telling me just cause your ass settled for trash.

Spoiler warning for relatively advanced level of plot in Hades 2. I've gotten pretty far in it.

I am beyond fucking heartbroken for Hades himself. I am devastated.

He fucked up raising Zagreus. Yes, he eventually reconciled, apologized, all that, but it took until Zag was well past childhood. Zag himself had to do the (flaming) leg(foot?)work to make it all happen, too.

By the true ending of Hades 1, you know that Hades knows that he fucked up with everyone, from his wife to his child to his Olympian relatives to his loyal Chthonic court members.

Melinoë is the child born of his rekindled relationship with Persephone. She is his chance to be a good father right from the get-go. He probably did whatever the Greek god equivalent of Lamaze classes and reading What to Expect When You're Expecting might be. I can imagine long and difficult yet loving conversations between Persephone, Hades, and Zagreus about how much they want the better version of their family to be the one that welcomes the new baby into the underworld.

And then, wham! Hades's own father shows up to be like "healing from ur toxic masculinity? learning that emotions are valid? caring about others? knowing better to do better? LOL BISH U THOUGHT" and takes it all away. Prior generations doing all they can to prevent cycle-breakers from healing. Too real.

I realized all this in the encounter where Hades tentatively and oh-so-tenderly asks after Mel's well-being and she responds with "LORD FATHER I AM AN INSTRUMENT OF VENGEANCE AND I HAVE NOT YET HAD IT SO HOW DO U THINK I AM DOING". Calling poor Hades "defeated" doesn't even begin to cover it.

Then, in the encounter right after that one, he expresses his regret that he, Persephone, and Zag weren't there to watch her grow up. And then HE ASKS HER WHAT HER HOBBIES ARE?!?! And seems saddened by the fact that her response is, yet again, "LORD FATHER I AM AN INSTRUMENT OF VENGEANCE AND I HAVE NOT YET HAD IT SO WHAT DO U THINK I DO WITH MY TIME". He is just so damn sad and full of regret.

He is the most dynamic character in the series, even without Hades 2 being unfinished. The series is named after him for a reason. Hades grows, changes, regrets, learns, all that.

My. Heart.

Do I know what it means to be a woman? Do I know the difference between a man strutting out his weight across the road while a woman shies off to give way? Do I know what it means to be a woman in a world where several of us are raped, killed, used, exploited, discarded, murdered, ripped, scrunched up, unwound, run over, violated, pried into, scraped, annihilated? Do not teach me my genitals; I know full well that they betray me to a life of suffering. To be a woman is to be a sacrifice, something to settle for— nymph, virgin, innocent, beautiful, motherly, young all at the same time. It is not enough to be one, or several; we must be all. Anything less is unacceptable in front of a measly appendage. I am something to be given away, something to be pursued, something to be caught despite what I may have to say in such a manner. I am something bartered; something sold (hopefully in pristine condition for that is where my value is), a commodity, a trophy at best; vermin, sad, unagreeable, used up cunt at worst. Wicked fruit bears a wicked tree, bears a wicked fruit; but perhaps mine is a dried up, rotting thing. The apple does not fall far from the tree, but its branches are tired; it crumbles under its own weight, crumpled over like a weeping willow next to the cedars and oak trees.

I have found that safety is to be undesirable.

Kinda sad that the point of life is to constantly make yourself better and make the right choices. What do you mean that I have to be productive, I have to heal everything that went wrong in the first twenty years of my life, I have to get a job . I would just like to sit beside a river and read a good with coffee and cake. I would just like to rest. And walk across a field and watch the sunset and go on coffee dates with my bestie. And not think about capitalism and how it's killing the planet, the billionairs taking 13 minutes flights playing a role in burning my country (it was 50°C here last week) what is happening to marginalized communities in my country, generational trauma and corrupt systems and sinking economies. God I do not want to think about anything for a day.

I come from a long line of people with something wrong with them

shaking six year old me by the shoulders YOU WERE RIGHT. YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT LOVE AND ABOUT FAIRNESS AND ABOUT SHARING IS CARING. YOU WERE RIGHT. THE ADULTS DON’T KNOW ANY MORE ABOUT TRUTH THAN YOU DO. KEEP BELIEVING IN THE FAIRIES AT THE BOTTOM OF THE GARDEN. NOTHING IS “JUST THE WAY IT IS”. I AM SORRY THEY EVER CONVINCED YOU TO FEEL SHAME. YOU ARE REAL AND A PART OF THIS WORLD. YOU WERE RIGHT.

CAITLIN STASEY as SASKIA VAN DER BEEK CLASS OF ‘07 (2023- ) Soul-Crushing-Cycle

glass, irony and good, anne carson // margaret atwood // enough, suzanne buffam // linnea paskow // in conversation: kathleen turner, david marchese // haunted womanhood, heather havrilesky // where to begin, sue zhao // the stream of life, clarice lisepector

*staring at a framed picture of me as a kid in my parents living room*

Mom says it's my turn with the guilt

"Jesus can always reject his father but he cannot escape his mother's blood"

-ethel cain, family tree (intro)

EXCUSE ME??? IF THAT DOESN'T SCREAM DEAN IN THE BEGINNING OF S6??

he tried so hard to stop behaving the way his father taught him to, he tried to be a good dad BUT BEING A HUNTER WASN'T IN HIS FATHERS BLOOD, IT WAS HIS MOTHERS.

IT LEAD HIM RIGHT BACK TO THE LIFE BECAUSE WHILE HIS FATHER WAS THE ONE TO CONDITION HIM TO "THE FAMILY BUSINESS" HIS MOTHER WAS THE REASON HE STAYED IN IT

Before the Anger- episode 43, "A Red Pen and a Dumb Book"

((Chara decided to humour Toriel and joined her in the kitchen. She even pretended to smile and said, “Sure, Mother.” and seeing Toriel’s face light up made Chara’s smile genuine. What a stupid woman. Chara stood beside Toriel, looking up into her piercing eyes. Being this close to such a creature made Chara’s hands tremble, so she made a tight fist.))

The color red is very important in this comic. It symbolizes humanity. Gaster's speech bubble...

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