Latest Posts by healingange - Page 2

making a compilation of text posts that knocked sense straight into me

my collection

Andrei Tarkovsky

this ask polly comment..

“We cannot live in a world that is interpreted for us by others. An interpreted world is not a home. Part of the terror is to take back our own listening. To use our own voice. To see our own light.”

— Hildegard von Bingen, from ‘Selected Writings’ (via wraith-lace)

how terrifying metamorphosis must be for the caterpillar has no concept of what it is doing, or what a butterfly is, or what will happen to it as it spins itself the cocoon. we r more alike than different

“It was an act of self-preservation — however misguided it was”.

Most anti phone advice is so inane and regurgitated to me but one thing I’ve been thinking about for days is “social media is okay, but the real danger comes in when you think your phone should be your go to during your limited pockets of leisure” like that’s literally the truest thing ever

Do you have any advice for young women?

In general? Sure. Read whatever you can get your hands on, but especially work written by women. Put your hands in sticky things at least once a week (clay, paint, dough, soil), don’t date anyone for a few years, travel when you can where you can, learn the skill of listening to your body— rest when you are tired, eat when you are hungry, drink when you are thirsty, and move when you are anxious. Swim as often as you can. Try to live alone at least once. If you can’t live alone, make time to be alone often. Carry pepperspray and do not learn to hold your tongue. Learn to sew, or weave, or knit. Unlearn the impulse to apologize for things that are not your fault. Pleasure yourself. Every once in a while, remind yourself of how loudly you can yell, how quickly you can run, and wildly you can dance. Allow yourself to cry for your mother. Spend as much time as you can in female-only spaces. Spend even more time with older women. Listen to their stories. Memorize their gray hair and lined faces, their swollen joints and sagging breasts. Cherish the gradual appearance of these things in yourself as an inheritance. Hold hands with other women. Spend some time naked in your home. Adopt a cat, or a fish, or grow some caterpillars into butterflies on your window. Eat heartily and drink to enjoy it. Go hiking and scream from a peak somewhere. Sometimes, allow yourself to act like a child again— climb a tree, scrape up your knees, and lick cake batter from the spoon. When you clean your home, open all the windows and beat the dust from all the curtains. Laugh loudly. Do not become self-deprecating to encourage others to laugh with you.

The Book of Forbidden Knowledge, No. 1643

A very good chapter of a book is Chapter 7: Envy as a disturbed search for self from Susan Schwartz' Imposter Syndrome and The ‘As-If’ Personality in Analytical Psychology

The mutuals were so right. Reading On Self-Respect by Joan Didion DOES stop you from losing your fucking mind

Hello March <3

Humble urself and start w that 30 minutes of recreational reading a day. Go from there. Don’t overwhelm urself w a hefty tbr after a long reading slump

Ask for help. Who cares if it takes a village

Try to get things done in the morning. Then phone

It’s not as hard as you think it is

Be realistic about your limits. You will sacrifice some things in favor of other things. That is okay. Priorities are a revolving door and everything will get its turn

You’re at the beginning of your life. Calm down about doing everything at once

Hour by hour schedules have saved your life. Go back to them

People don’t ask for ur opinion before making decisions. Stop being so fucking concerned w what they think of yours

The truest cliche is sacrificing momentary comfort for long term gains. Sorry

Aim for perfection - don’t expect it off the get go. Perfection is a staircase. You will get there, or at least as close as u can, but you have to start somewhere. One chapter, one workout, one friend you’re consistent texting… then you go from there. Not everything has to be fixed at once

The only guaranteed time is now and what you do with it

Comparison is easily the most useless thing in the world

Green tea at sundown will make u feel better

Switching up your plan—your study plan, your timeline, your anything—is perfectly fine. But don’t use that as an excuse to not stick the landing

Ask if something/someone elevates your life—but ask if you’re also an asset to theirs. Survey others but survey yourself as well. Don’t be too hard on yourself but don’t coddle yourself

Just lock in tbh. Whatever you’re worried about u can take care of later. Choose 3 top things to focus on and own them. Accept other things might take a backseat as a result

Take piano practice as seriously as u do ur stem studies

You can fit a lot in w time management

Taking it one day at a time will save ur life

You can’t change it? Don’t worry about it. Most things are not a damning sentence. Pivot to another opportunity just as if not more lucrative

Intergenerational friendships:)

No shame in trying!!!! And also no one cares that much

Trust the process. It will happen w intention and incremental changes

Sit in the sun and practice thought stopping rituals about it

Embrace not over complicating things. Your therapist is good for u bc she does not indulge ur need to unnecessarily intellectualize/overthink things. She knows its not serving u anything and is just a distraction

Yes, sure, my trauma affected me.

Do you know what else affected me?

Dancing under the glow of LED strip lights with my best friend at 3am. The pair of shoes my godmother gave me with the cute little bows that I wear for good luck. My girlfriend laughing so hard at my joke she had tears on her face. The hours and hours I’ve spent scribbling in the margins of books. Buying the ugliest sweater at goodwill because it made all my friends grin. Listening to that song on repeat while I swayed through the halls at school, smiling in response to all the weird looks people sent me.

I’m never going to just be the bad parts. I refuse to be boiled down to just the bad parts. Every moment of my life has affected me in some way, more than even just the parts I remember, and there has been beauty contained within and surrounding all the grotesquities.

One thing that helped me in life is like realizing that everybody else gets away with being ugly. Everybody else gets away with confronting people. Everybody else gets away with accidentally bothering people. Don’t worry about anything ever lol

You know when you’re on self destruction day 8 and it gets so fucking boring it’s almost unreal how boring it becomes honestly…. It used to feel so naughty and clandestine and now it’s like….. 👍🏽 Cool tomorrow let’s go on a nice two hour walk get our mind right deep clean house grocery shop listen to sweet affirmations read exfoliate play instrumentals in the kitchen while we cook. And it’s not like a desperate plan it’s just like it’s actually more exciting to live the Other Way. Even if it doesn’t answer every existential qualm I have at once it makes it all nicer. I want to swim and suntan. I want to restock my mango kefir

I wish you an endless list of dreams, and the furious desire to make some of them come true. I wish you to love what must be loved and to forget what must be forgotten. I wish you passions, I wish you silences. I wish you bird songs at dawn and chidren’s laughter. I wish you to respect people’s differences, because the value and merit of each often remains to be discovered. I wish you to refuse a stalemate, or the indifference and negative vertues of our time. And I wish you never to renounce the search, adventure, life, love, because life is an incredible adventure and no reasonable human being must renounce it without putting up a tough fight. I wish you most of all to be yourself, proud and happy, because happiness is our true destiny.

―Jacques Brel

Wonderful new year wishes of Belgian singer Jacques Brel on January 1 1968 (Europe 1 radio).

Back in the office/ back on my bullshit

2024 1. Desire is information from the future 2. Anxiety is not a product of fear alone, but is employed to defend against any negative feeling 3. Feeling is the only resolution 4. Anger is surprisingly enjoyable 5. All truthful communication is inappropriate by some standard 6. Voice notes are speech therapy 7. Instagram is embarrassing because the medium is the message 8. Love must not be conflated with attachment 9. True power is antithetical to control 10. Conflict is a gift 11. Eye contact is singular and sacred 12. Fantasies of love are just mechanisms through which I am taught to love myself enough to try

the intimacy of sharing feelings and thoughts that were buried deep inside with someone who understands and listens to them patiently and acknowledges them and does not make you feel like you're too much is everything