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I love the positive portrayal of POC and queer people in the Insomniac Spider-Man games

Especially in Miles Morales and in SM2. I love how much is focused on the importance of Harlem’s community and in the cultural history and significance of people of color.

I love the casual gay and trans representation. Like lesbians in MM! Gay students in SM2! I’m pretty sure I’ve come across at least 2 nonbinary characters in SM2! It warms my gay trans heart ❤️

I want to be mutuals with every trans woman on Tumblr.

Not just because we’re all hot, funny, unhinged, powerful, emotionally intelligent, and dangerously full of eldritch energy—but because once we’re all connected, we can unionize.

Step 1: Take over Tumblr.

Step 2: Take over the internet.

Step 3: Take turns writing smut posts and reblog-chain them into one continuous, increasingly horny and chaotic sapphic epic.

It’s not just about power.

It’s about community.

It’s about craft.

It’s about gay rights and collaborative storytelling.

We are the revolution, and we are NSFW tagged.

being at work while your personal life is falling apart has to be among the top 3 worst human experiences. You’re at your absolute lowest and someone wants to circle back on an email…… unreal

reblog for something t4t to happen to you this summer.

I think I’m just a little too autistic for most people

Like I’m definitely a low support needs autistic person in the sense that I can navigate reality on my own, understand complicated things more or less fully: all to say, I’m not intellectually challenged (not say I’m some genius lol).

But I’m weird. When masking, I speak and write in a very formal, stilted, clear manner. I make every effort to be understood, or at least hopefully not misinterpreted. The only times that I come across as emotionally present are either when I’m very heavily masking and doing emotional regulation for someone else, or if I’m not masking at all because I’m comfortable around someone. They’re very different kinds of emotionally expressive though.

The problem is, I still do the stilted speech thing even when not masking if I’m trying to say something difficult or make sure I’m being coherent. And the thing is, I am fully cognizant that my mannerisms are off-putting. Sure people might tell me they don’t mind, but I’m not stupid - I can tell if they’re lying, even if it takes me some time to notice.

But I’m not just weird in my mannerisms. I have very niche, even cringe interests (I am held hostage by Sonic the Hedgehog and I won’t shut up about Deep Space Nine). I really suck at small talk, and love listening to people I care about talk about whatever they’re passionate about. I think that can breed a sense that I don’t contribute the same amount to conversation, even if cognitively I’m fully present. I’m quick to get attached to people I find comfortable around, especially because that’s so rare for me. And the quickness is probably what prospective friends find the most off-putting.

It feels like the only other person that will understand me is just someone who’s a carbon copy of myself. And I’ve yet to find her. Hell, I’m not even entirely confident we’d get along.

But I guess I have to hold out hope there’s at least one person that will get me. Because if there isn’t, what’s even the point? Why am I living in loneliness if not for the shred of hope that it’ll eventually end?

It just hurts to be abandoned again. And again. And again.

And it’s getting harder and harder to be strong/brave enough to even give people a shot.

Many such cases.

Hi. Just a call to the void that I’d like to see more lesbians in media. Thank you.

Who else?

I mean, it's not that many insecurities right?

it was not on wheat...

shadow doodles

sun, sand, and a fluffy Miya kitty! she will meow at the waves… 🐱🌊🏖️

god I could be so wealthy if I had no ethics. that's so fucking frustrating. I'm living paycheck to paycheck because I'm not grifting vulnerable idiots on TikTok. I feel like I have the ability to very easily scam people. I could make a killing with AI. but god. I have morals and ethics and so I get to be poor as shit. I hate this fucking world

doodle of @Guyinthesky_ 's charley🏳️‍⚧️

Alright one last thing. The Transfem Sonic mod currently only has daytime Sonic. While I would love to see them do werehog Sonic as well, there’s something poignant about having the werehog be male. It was especially so in the Adabat cutscene after Chip regains his memories.

Sonic: “I’ll bet it’s thanks to you. Even when I’m like this, I’m still myself.”

Chip: “You’re too strong to lose yourself.”

(Also let’s just ignore that Dark Gaia’s power making werehog Sonic male could lend itself to some bioessentialist bullshit that transfem people are “still male” at their core, because that’s wrong and I think the positive reading of it I described earlier is better)

While it has not improved my opinion of the game, I have discovered the transfem Sonic mod for Sonic Unleashed Recompiled (thank you for featuring it on your website) and I adore her so much

OK I figure I should lay out my unpopular opinions about this game.

The short version is I think the Dimps' version (PS2/Wii) is overall the better version (with Sonic Team making the PS3/Xbox version).

Lets tally up what I think each does better than the other, based on what I consider the Definitive Experience (TM) for each (emulate the Wii version and play the Recompiled version for each):

General gameplay feel (really high level, not nitty gritty): Dimps

Visuals: Sonic Team (though I played Recompiled with mods most recently, which makes whatever they did just a bit better)

Progression: Dimps, but the Improved Progression mod makes progression in the Sonic Team version much more similar, or at least tolerable

Level design: Dimps, and this one isn't even close

Final boss sublist:

Gaia Colossus vs Dark Gaia: Dimps

Super Sonic vs Perfect Dark Gaia: Sonic Team, and it's not even close

Now onto my big gripes with the Sonic Team version:

Level Design: I find myself getting very frustrated with the level design of Empire City Day and Night, with Holoska Night, and with Eggmanland Day/Night (and the fact that it's all one Frankensteined level). Apart from Empire City, which feels really rushed, the rest of the listed levels feel like there are sections of somewhat untested or unrefined level design which result in playing through them being less fun and more of a chore/slog. These grating sections of levels are almost always death loops.

Gameplay:

The progression for moveset unlocks for the Dimps version is more or less predetermined, which means that you can't accidentally get to the end without the fully intended moveset and strength, which is possible in the Sonic Team version because of the XP based RPG-lite style progression. In fact, I'd argue that the XP system feels really out of place in this game.

Platforming: honestly both versions struggle with this in almost the exact same ways.

Day stage gameplay: Sonic moves too fast for my reaction time. That's a personal problem. What isn't a personal problem is that drifting around corners almost never works correctly because the turn radius is way bigger than the sharpness of the turn you're supposed to go around. Future games end up doing both better, and it's understandable that they can't get it perfect in the first 3D Boost game.

QTEs: I hate these and am not good at them. Too many, but that's also kind of a personal problem, and it's more just emblematic of the era of gaming this game was made in. I haven't played the Dimps version recently enough to have a strong opinion on if they did QTEs less, but that version also had them for what it's worth.

Now, I don't want all this to make it look like I hate this game. I grew up with the PS2 version and loved it. If you'd asked me growing up I'd have listed this as my favorite Sonic game, not having even touched the Sonic Team version and not caring what was different.

I also really want to like this game. It clearly had so much effort put into it. There's scope! It's big! Not in the sense that they're trying to milk like 60 hours of playtime, but the locales are so diverse (the music! top notch!), and the gameplay all feels like they were having fun with the ideas they had. It feels so lovingly made, and it breaks my heart that Sega decided that since it was a flop upon initial release that they had to pretend it never happened and change course.

The recompiled version, which can run at any* framerate and resolution, and can be modded with HD textures and character models, is gorgeous!

*(at least reasonable ones, not sure if 8k 360fps is supported lol but I got to experience 1440p at an almost constant 144fps)

Anyway that's enough yapping about Sonic Unleashed. Nobody wants to hear my unpopular opinions about SA2 though lol.

In case anyone is curious, yes I have a Sonic game tier list, from S "Favorites" to F "Bad". Sonic Unleashed gets B-tier "Good" for the Dimps version, and C-tier "Just OK" for the Sonic Team version.

While it has not improved my opinion of the game, I have discovered the transfem Sonic mod for Sonic Unleashed Recompiled (thank you for featuring it on your website) and I adore her so much

While it has not improved my opinion of the game, I have discovered the transfem Sonic mod for Sonic Unleashed Recompiled (thank you for featuring it on your website) and I adore her so much

new internet rule: every bit uploaded to the internet on April 1st, or every post scheduled in advance to be public on April 1st, should be scrubbed automatically come April 2nd. I should be allowed to avoid the internet for a day and not be served the slop afterwards by algorithms that think I accidentally missed it

Happy TDOV!~ 🎉

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finding sapphic yearning on this site is both a blessing and a curse

on the one hand, it's vindicating to read about people with similar feelings to my own, who can word them so poetically while all I can muster on my own are vague uncomfortable emotions (which is to say, reading posts here help give those feelings release by providing words to them).

on the other hand, it can leave me feeling like a faker because I can't articulate my yearning and loneliness well on my own. it can amplify my loneliness because I know I'm feeling vicariously through the words of others.

I can analyze and dissect what various issues contribute to my isolation, but those problems seem insurmountable.

just want to end the post by saying that, in the end, I appreciate and adore the posts made by the sapphics here who are more articulate than I am.

I love trans women's voices. I love their voices so much. It doesn't matter how little or how much they voice train. How feminine or how masculine or how androgynous their voice sounds. I love each and every one of their voices. Maybe it's just a natural response, since I'm hearing the voice of people whom I identify and find safety in. But whenever I hear a trans girl speak I instantly feel a lot more at ease. I know that I am not alone here. I know that there's so so many more of my people than just me.

They're also just soso cute when their voices whimper and whine, or growl and moan with carnal desire. Heheh idk I just really like tgirl voice no matter what :3

Thank you for reading my silly gay post. Have a great day, I love you

t4t will save us all.

It has been not even 2 hours and -jesus christ- I missed this site, there will never be another website like tumblr

Wow it’s been a year. I doubt that the transphobic moderation has gotten better but I missed Tumblr so here we are I guess

Wow it’s been a year. I doubt that the transphobic moderation has gotten better but I missed Tumblr so here we are I guess

happy world frog day from camille 🌺💗

meow! (with rizz)

I love these two so much

All gains to lift your gf