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“i’m not going to pretend that you weren’t a huge part of my life, because you were. you were the biggest part of my life. regardless of what may happen in the future, where our paths take us, or who we become, i think a little part of me will always wish it was you next to me.”

— maybe in another life 

“You know someone is important to your soul when you’re willing to break a thousand times over just to have them in your life,”

19:00 - The pain is sometimes addictive (moondustanddreams)

“You’re not invited back into my life. You can’t just keep coming and going. If you’re going to leave, then don’t come back. I’m done holding on to promises that you aren’t going to keep. But just remember, you decided to leave.”

—

“That girl will never shut up. She’ll always have so much to say and when she says it she’ll probably stutter more than she should. She’ll get teased a lot for it too. That girl’s laugh will never quiet down. It’s loud and fills the whole room. She always hated that. Her anxiety will creep up in her body and will eat her inside out. Her depression will make her crawl under covers and make her a child again. She’s not trusted with sugar cause it’s then that that child in her comes out postivley. That girl is passionate and once you get her started on something she loves she won’t stop. That girl is a pain in the ass. But that girl loves so hard. She’s stupid and naive and idiotic but she loves with every fiber in her being. She lets it consume her and suddenly its like she’ll see the best in every flaw you have. She’ll stare at you and it’ll take everything in her not to kiss you. Cause to her you’re a fucking masterpiece. That girl loves so hard that a fire burns deep within her. The only bad thing is is that that fire burns so hard itll overcome her if you dont feel that way. It’ll overcome her until the beautiful stupid, naive, idiotic girl is nothing but ashes and embers on the floor. So i beg of you, please give that girl a chance.”

— unrequited love pt. 1

“Do I mind texting first? No, I will show that I care about you. Do I mind texting first for weeks and basically talk to myself for a whole conversation? Yeah, I kinda do. So forgive me if I’m done trying.”

— you had your chances

“This is how it has always been with me. Give me something good, I’ll destroy it. Love me, I’ll destroy you. I have never felt deserving of anything in my life.”

— James Frey, A Million Little Pieces

“It’s a fitting punishment for a monster. To want something so much—to hold it in your arms—and know beyond a doubt you will never deserve it.”

— Renee Ahdieh, The Wrath and the Dawn

“I only want two things in this world. I want you and I want us.”

—

Do you ever have those moments when you just stand somewhere and bawl your eyes out in the most horrifying way for like a minute and then suck it all up and pretend everything is good for the next hour?

I know he’s not good for me but I can’t decide if walking away will hurt more than staying one more night.

-A.d.c

I needed a hug. I needed to cry on someone else’s lap. I needed someone to shrug off all this hate and pain consuming me. But I only had myself. And I was never enough.

Do you ever just want to tell people that the little annoying things you do isn’t your fault it’s because of childhood trauma but then stop yourself because you know that’s attention seeking lmao

“I’m afraid to love you. I’m afraid that you’ll leave and that I’ll go back to being alone again. Only it will be a hundred times worse because I’ll know what I’m missing. …I want to be able to love you more than I fear losing you, and I don’t know how. Teach me… Please teach me. Don’t let me destroy this.”

— Mia Sheridan

“I’m addicted to you. I’m not sure what it is but you keep me sane. You manage to silence my demons. You know me. Every single time something is up, you know. No matter how high my walls are, you see through. I can’t hide myself from you because you know me. You know me and that scares me. I’m addicted to you and maybe it’s because for the first time someone actually knows me. I can’t fake a single smile no matter how hard I try because you know me. You’re my addiction and I don’t know how to stop it. You know me so even if I try to let you go you would know, so I guess… Don’t let me go because I need you, but it’s not just that… just like you know me, I know you. I know you just as well as you know me, and I’m still not sure if that’s a good thing.”

— 12:14 AM thoughts

“I want him but I’m frightened to want him. I don’t want my happiness to be entirely dependent on somebody else’s, to be a hostage to fortunes I cannot control.”

—

Jojo Moyes (Me After You)

Get the book here

“I am a cold love I kiss the way you like it but I never close my eyes when you put your hands around my waist I’ll tell you how much I need you when you’re too tired to remember how warm the words feel when they hit you I’ll wrap my arms around you at night but you’ll wake up alone in the morning call me cold hearted but I can’t wake up next to you and memorize your smile or the way your hand feels against my cheek when it’s only you, me, and the sunrise You’re fleeting and you know it Don’t fool yourself into believing we’re more than one snapshot in a set of millions I’m always going to leave you in the morning one day you’ll thank me for it”

— Commitment Issues (pt 3)

“I’ll never cry in front of you. I’ll never tell you how I feel. I’ll never wear my heart on my sleeve. I’m not an open book. My walls will always be up and guarded. I won’t tell you how I fight with myself about you, about how I shouldn’t want you, about how you’ll break my heart if I give mine to you. I won’t tell you how my heart constricts at the thought of you leaving me. I’ll never show you how scared I am of this… Of you… Of us. You’re real. You’re everything I want, and nothing is certain. Everything is blurred and we walk on this thin line between reality and fantasy. You’re a dream and a nightmare. I find peace in you when everything else is chaos. I don’t know what this is and that uncertainty scares me but maybe just maybe if I stay around, you will too.”

— 2:31 AM thoughts

“There are really no words, no eloquent way of saying: you’ve made me feel things I thought I’d never feel. I’m starting to think this is true love.”

—E. R.

“You are what I have been waiting for, the person I should have been with. But I stop myself from having feelings. I stop myself from thinking we have something special. Because not only do I not want to lose you, but I don’t want to lose myself again.”

— not for another heartbreak.

always being the friend of the beautiful girl getting hit on

“People like me are meant to be alone, Because half the time I won’t even notice your name no longer lights up my phone. I’m a walking contradiction, 
An as*hole with a heart of gold.
I’ll show you what love should really look like,
 But make sure to leave before any of it can unfold I have a contradiction that will always
 Prevent me From loving you Because I have Sadly learned Early in life 
That people leave I will be clingy But never get closer 
Be demanding attention
While keeping at bay I have my fear Of commitment
 Solidly embedded In me But once you’re here
I will hold on Until you can no Longer support me I am a contradiction 
Of emotion and impulse 
Of lonely and together
Of holding on and letting go”

— nickglendenning, anonymous 219

Meet The Moon Signs Part 2

{Part 1}

Libra Moon

Derives cynicism based on lack of optimism

Most likely born into a family with strong opinions and judgment

Is a true poetic and romantic

Sometimes they fear emotional expression

There’s never an opportunity missed where their opinion wasn’t viewed

Has a great sense of defensiveness (based on past lives)

Other’s are naturally drawn to those people with Moon in Libra just by how in-touch they are with fairness and the artistry of the heart

Has a hard time finding themselves when in a rut

Will find the beauty in everyone

Will daydream a lot

Scorpio Moon

Might have grown up with a bad relationship with their parents

Is the most secretive person you’ll ever meet

Deep need for a soulmate

Experiences deep emotions (based on past life experiences)

Has a tendency to suppress their anger (also past life experiences)

May have experienced isolation as a child

Is meticulous

People are naturally drawn by the mystery of their presence

Sagittarius Moon

Sometimes lacks control

Naturally empathetic

Has a fear of commitment

Always a need to expand

Makes the best out of every situation

Has a spirtual connection to nature

May speak for others based on their bluntness

Fears the cage of expectations

Capricorn Moon

Can be super moody

Got along with their father growing up

They may have grown up in a home with lack of fun or grew up parenting themselves

They compete with themselves

They’re good at controlling their emotions

They hold many emotions to themselves which can lead to illnesses (based on past lives)

Can hide their emotions through sarcasm

Must have control in any situation (based on past lives)

Are very knowledgeable

Aquarius Moon

Most likely to be popular

Will always question you

Will think they know almost everything about you

Will build up emotions

Always feeling like they need approval from others

Emotional stability is dependent (based on past lives)

Has stubborn opinions

Gets abstracted from their own emotions

May have a large family

Oversees emotional needs from self and others

Good with a circle of people

Has a talent for diversity and leadership

Always sees the bigger picture

Most likely the only extrovert to recharge themselves alone

Pisces Moon

You’ll never get anything personal out of them

The best healers

Can be very religious

Can be pretentious

Most likely has had a hard time with food or nutrition (based on past lives)

Has a hard time understanding their own emotions

Every little thing effects their mood

They intuitively feel other people’s pain

Good at reading emotions

Has a great charm

Is most likely psychic

Good at reading people’s energies

Great at perception

Has a great imagination but harsh perfection of idealism

I will not wait for you

to regret losing me.

Does the sun wait for

the earth to regret turning?

Does the moon wait for

the night to regret ending?

The sun remains the sun,

and the moon remains the moon.

I will remain myself

with or without

your acknowledge of my value.

athena. your mind and your tongue  are the greatest weapons you’ll ever need

artemis.  you were born with silver in your veins so take aim and don’t hold back

persephone. living in hell doesn’t make you any less of an angel 

hera. marriage is meant to be  a lifelong relationship  and the most important marriage  will be with yourself 

demeter. take lessons from the harvest;  even the smallest of seeds can flourish  into beautiful trees 

aphrodite. your body is your armor  your shield  and your greatest weapon use it well

rhea. like the tides out to sea  you may crash  before you can  flow with ease

hesita. sometimes  you have to look beyond your four walls to find your way home

messages from the greek goddesses | part i (cc, 2018)

fun facts about me:

i’m an idiot

i have a terrible memory

i’ll forget 1 and continue to do stupid things