lilquackhere

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Back on board

After 2 months of binging I’ve gained 7kg and I’m back on board to start working it all off mainly because I desperately want to kill myself and I’ve seen a few recent photos of me and I’m pretty sure that if I continue I’m never going to stop

I’m back at the starting weight of 75kg

I know I’ve gained a lot in two months an you probably think it will be easier to just kill myself but I am willing to try and actually not be such a fuxking fat ass

Dying really sounds like an option.

I’m going to kill myself

I’ve got the pills and this time it will kill me

I am so sick of this fucking pain, being at the weight, the voices, the thoughts. I’m fucking over it all

I’m sick of uni, sick of people and relationships and sick of never getting the help I need

Bye everyone and I apologise for every being in your life

Was feeling really hungry today to I waited for dinner and had some squid + veggies with long grain rice (picked most of it off) + beetroot (max of 400 cals)

Also had some fruit salad which was max of (150 cals)

So I’m total I had 550 cals

Not a good day today not a good day at all!

And to top that off I relapsed on self harm after being 3 weeks clean

I’m not usually scared of liquid calories but today I had 2 McDonald’s coffee frappe (no whipped cream and no chocolate drizzle) but I’m still fuxking scared of how many calories I had today even tho I only ate 200 calories.

I’m not usually this scared of liquid cals, I avoid them where I can but I’ve got my safe drinks which is caramel latte (120 cals wit milk) and McDonald’s coffee frappe (no cream or chocolate) (400 cals) which usually make me happy and not give me a panic attack like they did today. I’ve had so many calories today it’s not funny and I’m positive I’m gonna gain weight!

I just want to throw myself of a bridge for letting myself have this many calories, it’s like I want to stay fat at this point.

I’m so over myself and I just want this to end

Ed meme dump

how many calories do you eat a day?

I fast most of the time but when I eat it’s always under 500 cals + 100 cals for my morning coffee. 🤗

I don’t recommend this as I keep losing my sight and hearing due to malnourishment which is scary but I just can’t eat.

Stay safe x

HELLO EVERYONE, I HIT MY NEXT GOAL WEIGHT OF 68kg WEIGHING IN AT 67.90kg

In 12 weeks I’ve managed to lose 9.10kg (20lbs) and 17.10kg (37.6lbs) since my high weight.

Current BMI 25.2

Next gw

65kg/143lbs

I want to look as sick as my thoughts

So.. I tried to off myself last week and ended up in the icu.

"My child is completely fine" your child would do anything to lose 30lbs in a week

33*

POV: You lost 10lbs but look 10x fatter

TW // ED , Fatspo

Fatspo is disgusting.

Every other month on my twitter timeline I see women notice that their pics got used for fatspo and it's heartbreaking.

Imagine thinking that you have the right to post other peoples bodies and call them things just for motivation. Believe it or not, some people (no matter what weight they are) love their bodies, have self-esteem and unlike us aren't mentally ill. People who post fatspo are the ones with the problems.

If you post fatspo or publicly shame someone for their weight in order to boost your own ED you are no better than the skinny girls who called you fat behind your back, you are no better than your family members who made comments on your eating habits and you are no better than the guys who asked you out as a dare because of your weight. Being skinny with an ugly personality is not cute. You're bullying.

Welcome to my favourite new filling recipe under 160 cals

Apple pie oats

70g of rolled oats (50 cals)

130g/medium Apple (76 cals)

2tsp of ground cinnamon (11 cals)

2tsp of Brown sugar (23 cals)

Instructions

Put rolled oats in microwaveable bowl, add water until oats are covered and microwave for 90 seconds

Cut up apple into cubes

Place Apple in oats, add cinnamon and brown sugar.

Mix until all combined and enjoy

All together this is 160 cals and fills u right up

Okay so I just binged on kfc and a donut, it was 546 cals for the tenders and 300 cals for the donut. I’m literally so dead and want to kms. I purged it but still feel like absolute shit with a total of 1107 calories in total today.

I need to die, I am sick of this cycle.

Weekly check in

okie so today I weighed 70.10 but my low weight during the the week was 69.80 which pisses me off that I gained 300g. Anyways still making progress ig

If I can talk to you and not be judged, reblog this

Weighed in at 69.80kg this morning 👌

✨ reblog if ✨

You have an eating disorder but it doesn’t look like you do.

Been trying to follow this recently I will update if I have seen any changes :/

Biggest inspo ever

WE HIT 70kg

After a month at being stuck at 72kg I’ve finally hit 70kg weighing in at 70.45kg (155lbs) this morning

I’m at a plateau still 🥲

I’ve literally been at this weight for a month and I am crying.

I am going to try high cal restriction for a week instead of just a few day. Around 1200 - 1500 cal (5028kj - 6285kj)

I’m hoping this will boost my metabolism and get out of this weight cause I was going amazing and losing a 1kg a week and now I’m, well, here in a plateau.

Any other tips are greatly appreciated 😊

Didn’t get anywhere this week again, tried breaking gym plateau with high cal restriction but that didn’t work, but we’re lower than last week so that’s cool.

I want need stick legsss

got on the scale at the doc & i finally broke out of being 135lbs.

ya’ll i’m 126lbs😭🥺

so since i’m an actual witch, this post is gonna be a plateau breaking spell ✨✨✨

like charge, reblogs cast to get over that plateau & start losing weight again!!!!!

stay safe everyone!!!!