Didn’t Get Anywhere This Week Again, Tried Breaking Gym Plateau With High Cal Restriction But That

Sorry just so I don’t lose it

I’m starting this 10 week challenge. Whose with me?

I’m starting this and going to try my hardest to continue this for the next 10 weeks. I’m starting today (August 19, 2019) and will do this workout everyday after school. I will eat only dinner (and maybe a small lowkey snack if I feel faint). I will check in every Monday and update you on my consistency, weight, mesurements (when I get a measuring ribbon) and anything else that Id like to. Stay safe, love you :)

August 19 - Weight: 119.4

"My child is completely fine" your child would do anything to lose 30lbs in a week

Back on board

After 2 months of binging I’ve gained 7kg and I’m back on board to start working it all off mainly because I desperately want to kill myself and I’ve seen a few recent photos of me and I’m pretty sure that if I continue I’m never going to stop

I’m back at the starting weight of 75kg

I know I’ve gained a lot in two months an you probably think it will be easier to just kill myself but I am willing to try and actually not be such a fuxking fat ass

The saddest moment is going to self harm and realising you have to look for clean skin to cut...

So.. I tried to off myself last week and ended up in the icu.

Egh I’ve hit a plateau and keep jumping around the 72kg mark and it’s making me want to kms

Any tips of getting out??

TW // ED , Fatspo

Fatspo is disgusting.

Every other month on my twitter timeline I see women notice that their pics got used for fatspo and it's heartbreaking.

Imagine thinking that you have the right to post other peoples bodies and call them things just for motivation. Believe it or not, some people (no matter what weight they are) love their bodies, have self-esteem and unlike us aren't mentally ill. People who post fatspo are the ones with the problems.

If you post fatspo or publicly shame someone for their weight in order to boost your own ED you are no better than the skinny girls who called you fat behind your back, you are no better than your family members who made comments on your eating habits and you are no better than the guys who asked you out as a dare because of your weight. Being skinny with an ugly personality is not cute. You're bullying.

21 days to lose 23lbs

now i don't know if this will work as i haven't ever tried it before (duh) but this is a reallyyyyy high restriction diet that i am hoping will get me to 110lbs (50kg) by christmas. it's a mix of some random diet plans i found and the theory that the abc diet is based on: 'alternating caloric intake'. weigh ins will be based on when i have psych appointments, and if im not getting the results i want i will lower calories for some days :) this will be the hardest thing i have ever done, but i HAVE to do it, i can't give up !!

5th: water fast

6th: 200

7th: water fast (weigh in)

8th: water fast

9th: 500

10th: 200

11th: 650

12th: water fast

13th: dry fast

14th: 200 (weigh in)

15th: 800

16th: water fast

17th: water fast

18th: 600

19th: 200

20th: 450

21st: dry fast

22nd: water fast

23rd: 400

24th: 1000

25th: 300 (weigh in)

if anyone has any ideas on changes i should make or if i should modify things at all PLEASE let me know :))

(i have never done a dry fast before and i have heard differing opinions on them so if anyone is a ~dry fast veterin~ gimme some hints ;D)

I mean-

Ugh I gained since last Sunday 🥲

I’ve been binging the past couple of days cause I’ve been feeling so lonely and the scale shows it. I literally just want to kms right now. I hit a LW of 71.80kg but yeah that didn’t last, did it.

✨insert panic attack✨