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first 4na post 💀🦋
I’m on vacation for spring break rn,, and we ate so much today.
Like, a lot alot. And the good thing about it is that I burnt most of the calories off, but I’m still worried about the fast food.
I ate two pizza slices from Mellow Mushroom, a raspberry sherbet, and other stuff in the morning for breakfast. (which were poor decisions on my part)
We went hiking so that’s how I burnt it off yet with how unhealthy everything i ate was im scared when i get back home and get on the scale it’ll go back to my sw. God this is stressful.
Good luck to me baddies am ir. 💃✨
I should prob introduce myself-
Ppl call me chris so u can go with that. Dinny is fine too lol
My stats:
sw:130 cw:117 gw:113 ugw:100
height: 5’2
lets have fun together lmao
imma vent abt 4na stuff alot here bc i have no one to talk to so
oh and im new to tumblr so warn me if i break any rulers or use something like #s incorrectly
Having to make yourself leave hangouts early so you don’t eat any more <
Hoping that losing weight will do something about the state of my face cuz this is ridiculous
I’ve lost over a kilo on ritalin. I have not felt this good in so long.
I feel so much more at ease when I decide that I'm not gonna eat for a day, but that's also really weird cause I've been having so much trouble with binging lately
Does anyone else feel that way or is it just me?
Back on board
After 2 months of binging I’ve gained 7kg and I’m back on board to start working it all off mainly because I desperately want to kill myself and I’ve seen a few recent photos of me and I’m pretty sure that if I continue I’m never going to stop
I’m back at the starting weight of 75kg
I know I’ve gained a lot in two months an you probably think it will be easier to just kill myself but I am willing to try and actually not be such a fuxking fat ass
I’m going to kill myself
I’ve got the pills and this time it will kill me
I am so sick of this fucking pain, being at the weight, the voices, the thoughts. I’m fucking over it all
I’m sick of uni, sick of people and relationships and sick of never getting the help I need
Bye everyone and I apologise for every being in your life
Was feeling really hungry today to I waited for dinner and had some squid + veggies with long grain rice (picked most of it off) + beetroot (max of 400 cals)
Also had some fruit salad which was max of (150 cals)
So I’m total I had 550 cals
Not a good day today not a good day at all!
And to top that off I relapsed on self harm after being 3 weeks clean
I’m not usually scared of liquid calories but today I had 2 McDonald’s coffee frappe (no whipped cream and no chocolate drizzle) but I’m still fuxking scared of how many calories I had today even tho I only ate 200 calories.
I’m not usually this scared of liquid cals, I avoid them where I can but I’ve got my safe drinks which is caramel latte (120 cals wit milk) and McDonald’s coffee frappe (no cream or chocolate) (400 cals) which usually make me happy and not give me a panic attack like they did today. I’ve had so many calories today it’s not funny and I’m positive I’m gonna gain weight!
I just want to throw myself of a bridge for letting myself have this many calories, it’s like I want to stay fat at this point.
I’m so over myself and I just want this to end
how many calories do you eat a day?
I fast most of the time but when I eat it’s always under 500 cals + 100 cals for my morning coffee. 🤗
I don’t recommend this as I keep losing my sight and hearing due to malnourishment which is scary but I just can’t eat.
Stay safe x
HELLO EVERYONE, I HIT MY NEXT GOAL WEIGHT OF 68kg WEIGHING IN AT 67.90kg
In 12 weeks I’ve managed to lose 9.10kg (20lbs) and 17.10kg (37.6lbs) since my high weight.
Current BMI 25.2
Next gw
65kg/143lbs
So.. I tried to off myself last week and ended up in the icu.
Okay so I just binged on kfc and a donut, it was 546 cals for the tenders and 300 cals for the donut. I’m literally so dead and want to kms. I purged it but still feel like absolute shit with a total of 1107 calories in total today.
I need to die, I am sick of this cycle.
Weekly check in
okie so today I weighed 70.10 but my low weight during the the week was 69.80 which pisses me off that I gained 300g. Anyways still making progress ig
Weighed in at 69.80kg this morning 👌
I’m at a plateau still 🥲
I’ve literally been at this weight for a month and I am crying.
I am going to try high cal restriction for a week instead of just a few day. Around 1200 - 1500 cal (5028kj - 6285kj)
I’m hoping this will boost my metabolism and get out of this weight cause I was going amazing and losing a 1kg a week and now I’m, well, here in a plateau.
Any other tips are greatly appreciated 😊
Egh I’ve hit a plateau and keep jumping around the 72kg mark and it’s making me want to kms
Any tips of getting out??
Stats - Active 7/22
I DO NOT ENCOURAGE STARVING, PURGING, PROANA OR ANYTHING THIS IS A COPING TOOL
17 - 75kg/150lbs - 164cm/5’3 - BMI 27
Goals & rewards
GW1 ~ 80kg/176lbs -🔓New shirt
78kg/171lbs -🔓
74kg/163lbs -🔓
GW2 ~70kg/154lbs - 🔓Waist beads
68kg/150lbs - 🔓
GW3 ~ 65kg/143lbs - 🔒Brandname pants
62kg/136lbs - 🔒
58kg/127lbs - 🔒
UGW~ 55kg/120lbs - 🔒Dunno yet
A little about me
Ive had an Ed since I was 8 unfortunately and it went from BED to ANA with b/p subtype since then
I fast as long as I can as eating nothing is easier than eating a little, the longest being 127 hours (6 days). Whenever I eat something I purge it regardless of it being a binge or not, I’ve been trying not to but it’s really hard to sit with the feeling.
Feel free to bully me with meanspo, sweetspo and whatever
