100 Days Til New Years :)

cr: annaolympiaa

9/01

alright y’all. i’m fr getting this weight off. imma use this account as a personal tracker, so i’m sorry to the very few people who follow me lmao.

weigh in: 127.9 (i think)

so today i went shopping with my friends, and managed to only panic in the dressing room once. then we ate at cheesecake factory :/ i had 420 cal pot stickers and a few bites of other people’s cheesecakes. then we ate boba, which was around 100 cal. my friends gave me some cheez it’s to snack on but not too many, maybe around 10.

i feel like a ginormous whale in my new clothes, i just want to look dainty in them :/

i got this. i’m not giving in this time.

i hit my first gw!!

i was 123 lbs a year ago.

i am now 2.5 inches taller, and at the same weight. this feels euphoric :)

i’ve officially lost 10 lbs! 20 more to go

cravings masterpost

over the years, i have been taught what certain cravings mean and how i can replace them in a healthy way. so i figured, why not share it with you guys? 

if you crave chocolate…

your body needs magnesium. a quick fix for this is raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave sweets…

your body might need some of the following: 

-chromium - have some broccoli, grapes, cheese, or chicken. 

-carbon - chow down on some fresh fruit. 

-phosphorus - chicken, eggs, legumes, or grains can help. 

-tryptophan - similar to magnesium, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave bread or toast… 

your body needs nitrogen. have some high protein foods such as fish, meat, nuts, or beans. 

if you crave fatty foods… 

your body needs calcium. broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help. 

if you crave alcohol… 

your body might need some of the following:

-protein - think seafood, dairy, or nuts. 

-avenin - chow down on some granola or oatmeal. 

-calcium - broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.  

-potassium - bitter greens or seaweed usually do the trick. 

if you crave ice cream/shaved ice… 

your body needs iron. some suggestions are fish, greens, seaweed, or black cherries. 

if you crave burned or grilled food… 

your body needs carbon. chow down on some fresh fruits. 

if you crave soda and carbonated drinks… 

your body needs calcium.  broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.

if you crave salty foods…

your body needs chloride. goat milk (yes i know that’s a little odd) and fish help. 

if you crave acid foods (burgers)… 

your body needs magnesium. just like chocolate, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave cool drinks (milkshakes or malts)… 

your body needs manganese. some suggestions are walnuts, pecans, almonds, pineapple, or blueberries. 

if you’re PMS-ing… 

your body needs zinc. red meat, seafood, leafy greens, and root vegetables are helpful. 

if you’re overeating… 

your body might need some of the following: 

-silicon - nuts and seeds are a quick fix. 

-tryptophan - eat some cheese, raisins, sweet potatoes, or spinach.

-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements should do the trick. 

if you crave tobacco…

your body might need some of the following: 

-silicon - nuts and seeds help, but stay away from refined starches. 

-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements or red, orange, or green fruits and veggies can help. 

disclaimer: i am not a health professional in any way, this is just advice i have been given over the years. 

am I the only one that has those times where you literally have no motivation to go on. Everything is a burden and you feel heavy and loopy and you want to sleep your life away. The things you loved to once do become chores and the sunny days you used to adore now seem dull and your favourite food tastes like cardboard and your favourite song doesn’t make you sing along. It’s just scary but hey the show must go on...

tw/ed

having an ed is drinking coffee all fucking day long, fantasizing about your next shit, craving the hollow feeling of starvation, but loving food more than anyone else ever.

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed 

i am the single most ugly thing to exist.

me: gets slightly angery because of someone

my mind: well guess what?? i’m gonna starve myself now and it’s ur fault >:)

tips on how to remind myself to not give in to cravings?

i’m trying so hard to get control i feel helpless please