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I promise I would do anythjng to kill you. Anything for you to die at the bottom of shit, but we know I am not in this strength and never has been. But I will still try hoping that you can feel pain, even though we all know you’re incapable and after thunder see only your own face.
Do you ever feel so lonely and unloved that you compensate the unreceived affection by obsessing over ships
Envy
Okay I was really confused with this one because I thought he will be pride but then Xion happened. Anyway, after some changes I think it kinda matches with envy and as it was written in the title loneliness. Also Keonhee was gorgeous, as usual. Bonus points for snakeu, lovely. I have no idea how this scaredy boy managed to hold him.
It's deeply painful how one person can make you feel like you're walking on clouds and other times, the loneliest person to ever exist.
Last night, I realised how utterly lonely I am without my partner talking to me. It was heartbreaking, to say the least. I realised that I have no one left to call and cry to, at midnight. In the past couple years since I've been with my partner, I think I distanced from my friends, but I guess I was already isolated by then.
Anyway, last night, I felt so alone, so lonely, so alienated. It felt like a dagger to my chest when he said he doesn't want to talk. My mind took me to some harrowing places. It felt like our relationship was over and that he doesn't want me anymore. And that he was my go to person and now I've left with no one to talk to when I really need to.
I'm back to how I was before I met him. All alone, all by myself, surrounded by friends but no one to reach out when necessary. It sucks.
Another person to grieve.
Another relationship to remember, woefully.
as the solitude comforts me,
the loneliness eats me up and
I let it.
I dine alone and I have no cutlery
to hold my appetite
as I attack this platter of death and misery
with my bare hands
and leave no crumbs.
Strands of Fate
(This is my first poem i've ever written and i'm not an english-speaker, tell what you think of it and give feedbacks if you want, it'll be helpful :))
Every heart has it's red thread
They're all born with soul's existence
Fate's the one who leads
One hem is curious and young
The other is alone and hurt.
It's strands try hard to not fall apart
Like heart's stitches already did
The poison flowed inside
Killing every feeling and hope in it
I'm that hem I fear.
So many scars, so many to heal
It hurts. Loneliness hurts.
It root deep inside your soul
Like drugs.
In first steps makes you feel good
The voices say it's peace
Then you start downing in it
You get deep under the ocean
The pressure. The air. I need help.
I'm touch-starved.
Love it's what I want.
Love. Love. Love.
I crave it. I desire it. I need it.
My thread it's rotting with my heart.
My body is slowly dying.
I'm just a breathing corpse
And I will be forgotten.
Like every single one in this endless void.
I can relate to this a lot... 🥲
I know I can’t be the only one here who normally loathes physical contact, but would kill for a cuddle at like 4 a.m. It feels so intense, and you can sort of feel it in the pit of your chest. That feeling of desperately needing someone to hold you as close and tight as they can. Occasionally, it’s enough to push me to tears, Why does this happen? Is it that need for pressure that most neurodivergent people experience? Is it a hidden loneliness that only shows when I’m alone and sleepy? Am I touch-starved? Or is this something else entirely?
suicidal in my 20s is crazy i should’ve killed myself when i was 13
life is teaching me the law of detachment. ain’t nothing really yours, you gotta be comfortable with not being attached. just enjoying life for what it is & moving on when it’s time
I kind of need to Reblog this. Because it sucks to be alone. I have tried talking first to someone. But they didn't replied to any of the asks I sent them. I also got block by them. It was not a pleasant experience. But it was an important lesson. Some people just don't want to talk or make new friends. It also doesn't help that the user I was trying to talk, was also artistic like me. So I'm may have accidentally step over a boundary that I didn't know was there. it is also important to understand to not just give up. Because giving up on trying to have friends in itself is a mental suicide. So I will keep trying. Even if it's hard. Even I do find friends. I still have to keep trying. Because in the end. We try not because it is easy. We try because it is hard. I don't dislike them. Yes I'm disappointed. But they had their reasons, and I have to respect that decision.
The thing is, if you never go anywhere and never talk to anyone and never reach out to new people and never text first because you have convinced yourself you're unlovable, then your loneliness will become a self-fulfilling prophecy - and that's NOT because you're actually inherently unlovable...
^this
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I think it's amazing how people meet other people that complement them perfectly, I've seen them share the same humor, the same music taste, the same favorite books and I can't help but to be jealous because I also want to find someone like that, someone who doesn't make me feel weird.
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October 31, 2019
Although it has taken me some time to write this article, I have been actively experimenting with techniques to break free from the loneliness I discussed in my last article.
I have recently discovered that loneliness can be temporary or it may be complex and chronic in nature. I am also realizing there is no quick and easy fix to my chronic sense of loneliness.
I do not believe one is hopeless in such a situation, as the healing process requires time and patience to overcome this obstacle.
I know many highly sensitive people can relate to my experience with loneliness. Therefore, I would love to share with you eight beneficial coping strategies that are bringing me a sense of relief on my healing path!
Being aware that you are lonely, rather than simply embracing solitude can be the first step to addressing an issue with loneliness. Having awareness about your vulnerabilities such as being HSP, experiencing grief, trauma, etc... It is also important to be aware that you are not alone and that there are others out there going through similar experiences. There truly is an abundance of support and like minded people in the world if you are willing to receive it!
Many highly sensitive people come from backgrounds filled with complex trauma or abuse that may have impacted the body mind and spirit of these sensitive souls. Therefore, an integrative approach may be beneficial in order to address the various underlying aspects that lead to a chronic sense of loneliness. For example, tending to one's physical, mental, and spiritual needs. Healing modalities may range from counseling, addiction recovery, therapy, support groups, alternative methods, and general health care. It may also require a degree of patience along with vigilance during the healing process and I know it is not an easy path (but worth it!)
An excellent way to integrate a sense of connection with routine, is by starting small and increasing socialization gradually. Since everyone has different personal and social needs, increasing one's sense of connection may look different from person to person. This may simply include going out for a walk, a friendly greeting to another person, connecting with the essence of nature, blocking out a specific time to spend with a close friend regularly. I personally find elements of comfort to be helpful( i.e. person, place, object, or existing routine), while transitioning to a new routine. As you gradually experiment with this concept, observe how each activity makes you feel to track progress over time. Over time, you can gain momentum and see how far you have come!
As highly sensitive people, we tend to value deep connections and prefer depth over breadth in relationships rather than quantity. I know this can lead to feelings of loneliness and frustration for HSPs. I do believe it to be few and far between to find such connections but they do exist! Although it is rare, many of us have experienced these connections at some point in our lives and I am extremely grateful for those special connections as many people may never experience this in a lifetime!
Seeking out connections with like minded people can be comforting. You will also find that many others are going through similar experiences and not only need support but want to be supportive as well. By being available and of service to others, one can experience a sense of relief as well as connections.
One thing I have observed about myself,(and many people in general) is a tendency to have unrealistic expectations about people without considering people's differences. I am learning that everyone approaches and processes situations differently, particularly in comparison to highly sensitive people. I also find that a great number of people in this day in age are not truly capable or available for healthy intimacy. Therefore, I realize the unnecessary struggle of taking things as personally.
There are a variety of ways to ground or center one's self.I find t connecting with nature to have profound effects, particularly after my recent visit to Alaska( ie. witnessing the beautiful scenery such as the northern lights). This can be a great way to not only embrace the sensory experience but escape from a ruminating mind. Exercises such as deep breathing, mindfulness meditation, or shielding energy with an imaginary white light or bubble can create a similar grounding effect.
Lastly, striving for a sense of autonomy and breaking free from entanglements/relationships that create energetic codependency can help protect a person's energy. Taking a walk and connecting with nature can also be a helpful technique to switch from a ruminating mind into the senses.
Volunteer for a cause that you value or participate in a hobby such as a creative project you are passionate about. I find that by immersing myself in these activities, I experience a sense of connection, purpose, and being part of something greater than myself and my struggles.
This can also be a great opportunity to embrace solitude and experience the oneness with life!
Reexamine old beliefs about yourself or past experiences and see if it is an obstacle from putting yourself out there into the world. Many times we believe lies about ourselves and miss the opportunities to reach our potentials and create our dream lives as a result of false self beliefs.
Learning to have self compassion and acceptance can be a great way to connect with yourself and love yourself unconditionally. I know this can take time and it can be rough at times but please remember that feelings are not always facts and whatever you are going through will pass. Filling yourself with love and acceptance create self sufficiency. With this self sufficiency, I believe one can more easily love and connect with others as well as extend that love to others with a fuller love tank!
Thank you for letting me share about my experience with loneliness and the lessons I have learned regarding this issue! There truly can be so much more to this than simply needing to be around people as it is often more about experiencing healing and connection! How do you cope with loneliness or experience connection?
With Love,
Dahlia
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The silence is unbearable.
No words are spoken but everything else is so loud.
We take photos as a return ticket to a moment otherwise gone.
// Katie Thurmes
( San Marco and Rialto in quarantine)
Songs about eating disorders,mental illnesses, loneliness and love