Why Am I Like This - Blog Posts

Well, i have so much things to do, guess i'll just take another snack to distract myself from responsability instead 🤷‍♀️

Does anyone else get anxiety because they love something too much? Or it's too real?

I can't look at IWWV stuff because I feel it too much. It makes me shake and ache and I can't breathe. It's so dramatic but it's true. The book is too real.

Or I'm looking for a fanfiction and I find exactly what I'm looking for but I immediately have to skip over it because then it'll be gone. But I never go back cause it stresses me out. My 'marked for later' tab is insane.

I get to the last episode of a show I love and I can't watch it cause it gives me anxiety. It can't end.

I find things that are so perfect, that represent me so well, things that I feel in my soul, and I can't partake. It's all too much.

mfw when people don't follow the boundaries i never set

man, these spot the difference games are getting harder and harder

Me: You know why I love reading fanfiction. I already know that my OTP is getting the happy ending they deserve. I don’t have to read the whole multichapter fanfiction in one day.

Also me, at 3am in the morning, staring with bloodshot eyes at my phone: I just can’t stop, I need to know how this ends. Are they going to be happy. TELL ME.

Also me, finally finished reading: I need another one. This one was just too exciting. Just one more, before going to bed. A fluffy one.

Queer Knight and her Hopeless Lesbian Princess

It drives me crazy that I can outline such an amazing book idea, but I can't just work up the motivation to write it. Like, listen, it's called Daisies in the Ruins, and it's already a play that I wrote, and it's about a lesbian princess who doesn't know she's a lesbian. She's come of age, and her kingdom is in a massive rebellion, and her job is to marry a prince with the biggest and most powerful army. She has two prospects, one is a lovable, dork, who is next in line to be the king of his kingdom. And the other is this douchebag, who is a prince but not the prince who will become king. Obvious choice here people. The only problem? Our lesbian princess (who again doesn't know she's a lesbian) meets our lovable dork's queer female knight. Oooh drama. What will happen next?! No one knows because I won't just write the damn book.

Why cant i have one decently normal fictional crush 💀💀💀 HELP-

I sincerely apologize to all my followers rn

I'M BACK FROM THE GRAVE AND AM SICK so have these doodles of my Elsen OCs with Zero context! Except their names!

1. Image of Stain in an elevator chatting to.. Who knows! You decife

2. It's Ash and Smoke the siblings vibing, even one of them is burnt and the other is missing a leg, eye... and most of their teeth-

3. Dusk n' Tulip, the fighter and gardener members of the zone 4 gang.

Ik they're cringy

Do you get that feeling where you just want to make something but you have no idea what to make? I just stayed up for an hour to find something from my childhood that i could use for an idea.Why am i like this???

I could be working but nooooooooooooo

Girl help my brain has convinced me that I’ll be violently judged and executed for being myself on an anonymous social media site then guilts me for not reblogging everything that it stopped me from reblogging 💀

i wanna post my oc's so bad

i wanna make and consume media of them so bad

i wanna show people my oc's so bad

*doesnt do anything with oc's*

lil drawing i made

ok uhm i kindaa may or may not have made a drawing of Steve and Hero from Wistim (What if Steve talked in Minecraft) by Press Start To Laugh (pstl) anddddd I accidentally made BOTH look like femboys when i only wanted to make Hero look like one- uhmmm.. forgive me for my sins please 🥺🥺🥺 [close ups👇]

edit: decided i should give you all some close ups

me: *opens messages* guess i’ll reply later narrator: she didnt

hi my loves, I hope you are well!

My life is a disaster rn

so to put it in order I need to do a lot a things!

starting by cleaning my phone

look, it's a total disaster. I have a lot of pics and apps that I don't use, and other garbage. wish me luck please (╥﹏╥)

why do i have to feel if all i've felt is hurt.

- i'm stuck in a mess that i made for myself

Distancing yourself from your friends so it will hurt less when they inevitably leave you <<<<

I hate having an anxiety disorder.

I've been getting increasingly worried about a collection of symptoms that I have been developing this past week.

Just figured out that it's Hayfever.

The thing that has happened every year

For over three decades

My brain did not get the memo apparently

I’m genuinely sobbing this is awful and amazing at the same time

Traits of Autism in girls

As observed by Tania Marshall. My older daughter and I fit this well, though it fits her a bit better because I really matched a lot of the original Autism profile based more on how it presents in boys.

A surprising number of people are pissed off by the very fact that anyone makes a distinction between the presentation of Autism in females versus males. But it’s frequently overlooked in girls simply by virtue of how girls are raised or treated in society, or simply due to the fact that they’re girls and are frequently (though not always) hardwired differently (as opposed to my case where I fit a large amount of the original profile).

This is a long list but the gist of it is that girls tend to appear more social due to mirroring others or being encouraged to be more social. Inability to do so is often dismissed as shyness. Diagnosticians I’ve met have used that alone to dismiss a diagnosis of Autism, and I have to assume this is a frequent practice.

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its funny how i can instantly recall the past 5 years' worth of market trends on one specific PC accessory, but the moment someone needs me to remember something i collapse into a black hole and die

Anyone remember "The Third Level" by Jack Finney. Everyone just wants to escape from this bs world rn. So do I would f* this s* and go into the fiction world & live my life like no tomorrow! Wait for me Mr. Darcy. I'll f* find that third level!

TF

Wait.....

Wait a minute......

TF.... the f*ck 

Wait Thalia......

Reyna...... 

What why?

My post of my Danny funko got likes what do I do with this knowledge that people like it, oh good heavens I have gone mad with power!

(not really I'm really nervous 😅)

Guess what you gremlins!

I ATE GLASS only a little bit that was very small but still it hurted lol and I still have my legal obligations tmmr such as an education lol

I'm fine btw ppl just emotionally dead lolllll

Man why is every fandom I'm in gay (me a bi genderfluid creature)

Ngl when ppl follow me I get nervous like why do U ppl like me I just here bro 😰😰 is how I feel each time, liking when people follow you now that's a joke I say as I continue following silly people on the tumbles for my amusement

You ever get that urge to bite your phone

Btw I've been up for almost a full 24 hours and the word phone looks like it's spelt wrong ya know lol

I omg I found out there's a season 4 of Danny Phantom on Nickelodeon tonight at like 1am Australia time!

So happy gonna watch it I've set reminders

Procrastination at it's best~ Charlie