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Holy moly dude.

The feeling you feel when you finally break free of a writers block. When you finally finish that paragraph that you had no idea how to complete. When you finally find a way to fix that story that always felt incomplete. That amazing feeling that makes you feel like ur on top of the world and untouchable.

I live for it.

so im watching gilmore girls rn and it is SO funny to me how everybody was telling rory to stay away from jess and telling jess to stay away from rory but she spent a night in jail when she was with who? oh yeah, logan.

the concept of time is so terrifying to me. and just walk with me here but how scary is it that, say, when you were nine years old you had a set of friends and you had hobbies and likes and dislikes and your whole world revolved around those things. and now? you can hardly remember a moment from then. it doesn't even have to be when you were nine, take now. you, now, have a set of friends and hobbies and likes and dislikes and you have opinions and all that is what makes up you. and in a few years, those are gonna go away and you're gonna get new opinions and new likes and dislikes and you're gonna change, and then change, and then change again and it's just gonna keep going and going and never stop - you'll never be this you again, you'll never be the exact same as you are right now, ever again. and that's scary. i have a friend group, and we've all been friends for the last three years. i can't imagine the last three years of my life without them, i genuinely don't think i can understand how immensly different my life would be if i didn't have them. and eventually, these people that mean the life to me and i love so very much, these people that i would genuinely die for, are just gonna be memories. they'll end up to be one of the many pages in my life i've doggy-eared. how fucking terrifying.

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my grandma is dead. it was my parents wedding anniversary. my dad bought flowers and a cake. i came home screaming, "happy wedding anniversary!!" only to be cut off by my dad. he pulled me aside and said, "grandma's dead."

my grandma is dead. it's my mother's birthday february 1st. she's turning 49. my brother was meant to come home and we were gonna plan a surprise for her.

my grandma is dead. ten minutes after i found out, i took my dog out for a walk. i left at 4:20. i came back at 5:30. i was crying the whole time.

my grandma is dead. the grief came in waves. i would remember, then cry, then stop. and then remember, then cry, and then stop. remember, cry, stop. remember, cry, stop.

my grandma is dead. the last thing she said to me was, "stay safe. ill see you next time,". now there is no next time. the next time will be me infront of her grave.

my grandma is dead. i was too scared to talk to my mom. too scared to look at her. i would cry if i did. and i can't cry infront of my mom about her mom dying, that's rude.

my mother's mother is dead. she has no parents any more. when we went to visit her, my mom would tell my cousins and aunts and uncles that her mom was fine. she was bedridden but could still speak, she could still remember everything, she only had trouble hearing. she would tell everyone that that's how strong her mother is. was.

my grandma is dead. and god i miss her. id only ever seen her 12-16 times. me and my family live in the us, but everyone else lived outside the us. traveling home costs a lot, and so we could only go once a year. but i wish we went more. i wish i talked to her more. i wish i sat with her more. i wish she was still alive.

my grandmother is dead.

so real

SOMEONE COMMENTED ON MY AO3 FIC IM ABOUT TO EXPLODE

OH MY GODDD PLEASEE

please god let conan gray’s new album make me feel the same way i felt listening to superache for the first time

i can't believe that some people DONT like dogs like wtf you sicko get tf away from me

Spending adult money correctly

WOULD YOU????

sure you can match my freak but would you write me a letter about our friendship before you died? would you remember the first time we met? would you know that you would follow me anywhere from the first time the i did something stupid in front of you? and would you? along with our entire dwindling group of friends? if you could do it all over again, would you? even if it meant you went insane and i killed you? would you not even change a thing???? would you know i would find a way to do what’s right because in your eyes i always have? would you tell me to take care of everyone else when your gone? to take care of myself? would you tell me i deserved to be happy, and thank me for being your friend??? and have a nickname for me?

what's my biggest fear? why, thank you for asking.

one day realizing that i don't remember the names of the girls i sit with at lunch. one day realizing i don't remember the names of the kids in my classes. one day realizing i don't remember what my friends really looked like. realizing i don't remember their favorite colours. or where they're from. or what their favorite class is. who their favorite teacher is.

realizing i don't know where the girls i sit with at lunch are right now. if they've had kids. if they've gotten married. what they're studying. what they studied. what they're job is. if they've traveled. if they've left the country. if they've moved streets or towns or counties or states.

realizing that time has drawn us apart. currently we are an interwoven thread, every single one of us so much of the other, every single one of the other so much of us, but in 5 years or 10 or 15 - we might be strangers. realizing that time had strung us together, made us all so important to one another, just to pull us apart slowly. to make us memories. photographs. old texts. saved snapchats. journal entries.

my biggest fear is time - pulling me along a path that i have absolutely no choice but to follow. no choice to stop and change. what i do, i do. what i did, i did.