O Shit Its Me

AUG 20, 2023

study diary —

It wasn’t as gloomy as I had thought it would be today! I got a pretty early start in my studies.

I finished the reading and homework for one of my programming classes, and then started the reading for my other programming class. I also began taking notes from my textbook for the next chapter of physics.

In the morning, I go back to the office for the first time since classes started. I worked from home last week to ease back into my studies. I’m nervous (commuting is so unproductive), but I’ll also be meeting with my advisor to discuss time management for this semester.

I also get to start research tomorrow!!

shoutout to the people that like learning, who love learning, who want to learn and understand and create things on their own terms, but can’t go to college/university. not for lack of money or access (although those are obviously valid and understandable), but because their disabilities prevent them from doing it. who don’t have enough spoons to take a university course and complete the amount of mental and physical work it entails. who are too anxious to leave home and don’t have the resources to combat that anxiety. who get burned out quickly and easily and can’t handle the amount of effort university takes. it’s not your fault and does not determine your worth - you are allowed to do what makes you comfortable. for those that mourn the loss of their college experience, i understand and your feelings are valid. whatever the reason may be, i see you.

December 1, 2022 | Essay writing

I’m sitting in my sister’s bakery trying to finish my essay that was originally due tomorrow but then became due yesterday. Yeah. I’m feeling more and more confused by my essay the more time goes by and my attempts at identifying the structure that I think is there, somewhere, are going a bit so and so. Thankfully my sister is feeding me so that my energy levels stay up <3

13.10.23, friday

listened to 70s, 80s etc. hits all day aka felt good

things done today:

5h of coding

gym workout

i love people who bring old big laptops to lectures. i’m being so genuine, it’s such a power move to walk into a room where we’re all on our fuckass macs and tablets and u take out your 10cm thick 25inch-screened laptop that makes the sound of industrial grade machinery while opening the oldest version of Word known to man

Tumblr boy Era.

There’s no better time to get back into studying than the present. Don’t forget to take breaks.