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me after telling myself im clean from $h just to get an 3d
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Im out of a job for a couple weeks until i can find somewhere that will take me. I still need to pay rent, electricity, internet, and at least buy the pup and kitty some food. I cant go stay with my sister as she is still recovering and also we just do not live well together. Idk, if you have anything to spare ill be forever grateful.
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Oh. 😭
red flag tag game
thanks for the tag @v3hementvelvet ♡
...okay, no need to call me out like that.
@n0t-h3r3-anym0r3 @111clem111 @sea-foam-boy @d14m0ndr1c3cak3 @lastfoxalive @yu-littleleaves @amptoohigh @demonanaangel + open tags
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me looking at the person im eating with to make sure im eating slower than them😭😭
i just feel like all of them.
I despise myself it looks like I've gained so much w3ight in like 2 days.. I know it's not true because I am just on my period, + I ate like a healthy person, but I feel like a p1g, and I hate myself so much. Why can't stop eating 😭 I literally can't stop thinking about food it is so annoying, but I wanna be sk1nny, so I have to deal with it ig
Anyone got any tips for me?
DONT BINGE CHALLENGE!!! but you’re surrounded by food and people who encourage overeating challenge!!! (EMOTIONAL🙀🙀🙀)
Guys I am on my period and I ate so unhealthy its crazy + I am so bloated I am gonna cry 😭
Some inspo 4 myself
Why it's better to be sk11ny:
⤷ Your period is lighter
⤷ Being intoxicated gets doubled
⤷ Less hunger: Less room = Less desire to fill
⤷ Adorable in any fit; even simple sleepwear
⤷ You feel like the prettiest in the room
⤷ Looking down 💜
⤷ You can feel your organs, and when they aren't being pushed on it feels nice
⤷ You OWN zero sugar, no longer embarrassed by it
⤷ I always get very turned on by the emptiness in my stomach (↑ sex drive!!)
⤷ You're not embarrassed to go in public
⤷ Dieting is how you live. Again: Less embarrassment
⤷ Those comments are validating now, not off-putting and offensive
⤷ It's okay that you can only eat half of your meal.
⤷ Activity is twice as tiring, which makes it twice as rewarding.
⤷ Restriction isn't restrictive. You feel empowered by those numbers.
⤷ The sweetness from fruit is good enough. You no longer want candy or sugar-filled foods. (We don't talk about popsicles LMAO)
⤷ Talking about "it" mostly stops. You and your friends chat about that "fat bitch" now, and it's funny.
⤷ If you don't have friends, Ana has manifested. And you don't need the validation of your "friends".
Keep going. Soon, my love. You will get here. But not if you stop.
Guys, I was f4sting for quite a while, and then I was gagging and almost fainted, so I made that my metabolism day. 😭 Anyways, my friends found out now they want me to recover, but of course I don't want to because I finally started losing, so that's fun! I don't know why, but I love ranting on tumblr because you guys understand and don't judge ❤️ ily guys so much
Me rn
HEAR ME OUT.
reblog this if you started worrying about your weight before you were 16
Little too relatable
Credits to the creator (dolliecherie on tt)
Repost for myself
˚₊‧⁺⋆♱ Cure Fasting Boredom ⋆⁺‧₊˚
“Oh, I’m fasting, but I’m incredibly bored!!“ — so what I’m hearing is that you have nothing to do except eat? Or you eat when you’re bored..? Well, that needs to be fixed, but fear not, that will come with time. Keep fasting by the way, you’re doing great! So well in fact that I’ve actually compiled a list of things that you can do to keep yourself occupied!!
1. Make a playlist
2. Find some new music
3. Listen to music!
4. Take a shower
5. wash your hair
6. cut your hair?
7. dye your hair, even?
8. paint your nails
9. put on a perfume you barely wear
10. brush your teeth
11. put on some makeup
12. make a pinterest board of makeup looks and try them out!
13. wash your clothes
14. lay outfits on your bed and take photos/write them down
15. make some “for when i’m skinny outfits” and take photos/write them down
16. meditate
17. compile things that trigger you (YouTube Playlists, Pinterest boards, Screenshots of tumblr posts etc!!!)
18. Go for a walk
19. Walk to the supermarket and look at food (maybe i just like doing this)
20. walk to ur local train station and go to the mall OR!! walk to the mall (sorry if you live in buttfuck no where 😓)
21. journal!! prompts vvv
22. write down everything that’s keeping you going
23. write down all the things you want to eat when ur at ur ugw
24. write down your safe foods
25. write down your fear foods
26. write some triggers
27. write some thinspo quotes
28. reflect on yourself
29. get to know yourself
30. look at journalling prompts on pinterest
31. vent
32. brain dump
33. put lipstick on and cover a page in kisses
34. draw thinspo
35. draw an oc
36. try finding your art style if you don’t draw often
37. draw a scene you remember from your childhood
38. do a jigsaw puzzle
39. find a deck of cards and order them
40. study!!!
41. practice an instrument
42. look for jobs if your unemployed
43. go out with friends
44. talk to online friends
45. text ur irl friends
46. play minecraft
47. clean your room
48. de clutter draws & desks
49. make a thinspo board on pinterest
50. Make a pinterest board with all those facebook mom weight loss motivation quotes and things (they have a special place in my heart, okay?)
51. watch media that has characters w/ EDs in them. i recommend To The Bone (ofc), Skins (Cassie), Gossip Girls (Blair), Heathers (Heather Duke), Heartstopper (Charlie Spring)!!
52. find low calorie recipes
53. practice an instrument
54. contour your bones
55. write down rewards for when you reach another gw (eg, perfumes, new scales, new clothes, safe foods)
56. listen to some ED podcasts (i rlly like SciGuys Ep #201 and DRAMA MAMA Ep #32)
57. sometimes i watch swan liyah on YT
58. Make yourself some ice cold water
59. Fill up the ice cube tray (this is personal, i usually do this when i’m bored)
60. Commentary YouTubers 🙏
61. ED short films on YT
62. ED documentaries on YT
63. Quora ED stuff can be triggering too!!
64. Have a bath
65. De-clutter your phone
66. Get out there and reblog a whole bunch of stuff!
67. Duolingo
68. paint
69. haha 69… uh, read a book!
70. Stalk my ED Pinterest Account: https://pin.it/6IDHsH7jh
(it’s very cool i promise)
71. watch ED WIEIAD videos on youtube
72. look for different diets
73. watch cooking videos and save recipes for when your skinny
74. Make a playlist of workouts to try (reminder, you don’t have to work out when ur fasting<3)
75. write a letter to someone
76. practice your handwriting
77. Walk all the way to your local supermarket, get some gum and/or sugar free soda and walk back
78. hold a little fashion show for yourself
79. Listen to those songs you never got around to
80. Get into that artist you’ve never had time to get into
81. watch that show you’ve never started
82. Look into poetry
83. Write a poem
84. make a bookmark
85. draw one of your friends to give to them (no matter how poorly, it’s funnier when it’s bad)
86. Have a dance party, why tf not?
87. put beads on some of your shoelaces
88. Headphones up, eyes closed, laying on your bed blasting your favourite song. Just let yourself be surrounded by the music for a moment. It really helps your mood
89. Mess with spotify equalisers
90. Try some hairstyles out
91. straighten/curl your hair
92. watch a tim burton film
93. Watch a Studio Ghibili film (it helps to have an activity to do at the same time, like literally anything else on the list)
94. look at halloween costumes you can wear next halloween when your skinny
95. heal your inner child and watch a childhood show!!
96. sew something!
97. learn to sew? :)
98. make some jewellery
99. FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS!!
100. research a random topic (band backstories and mythology are my favourite!!!)
101. Look into the biology of a human digestive system (there’s a video of digestion we had to watch in school once that you can find on YT and it’s so gross and triggering)
102. look at mouldy pictures of food
103. watch time lapse videos of food decomposing
104. count loose change
105. burn your favourite candle because if not now the when?
will add more when i think of them! stay safe and do what feels right for you, don’t push yourself just stay disciplined
Take care <3
Hey, so I tried recovery, and I recovered. Or so I thought. Anyways I am now gaslighting myself that downloading tumblr again is really healthy, and yea. I don't wanna have 4n4 again, but i kinda do. I have missed it in a way, and idk this probably doesn't make any sense, but of course, i gained a lot of weight, so i am gonna try to lose it again.
I love you all!
Guys!! I am almost back on my l0west w3ight!!! Ahhhh!! I am getting back on track!!
Yess I am starting to lose w3ight. I am soooo happy!! It's working! 🎉
i know we all have eds so its probably not that helpful but i genuinely believe all of my mutuals would be gorgeous no matter their size
reblog if you want more interaction w your lovely followers
no because i feel like i've gotten fatter than when i started
I actually hate my body like. I know I’m not ‘fat’ so people telling me that isn’t helpful but. I’m not skinny either. I still have fat on my body and my thighs touch and my arms jiggle and I can see some of my bones at the right angle and lighting but they don’t stick out enough and my stomach doesn’t cave inward and I can see my collar bones but necklaces don’t float over them yet and my cheekbones and jaw bone is visible but my cheeks are still doughy and my chins still double and I can see my knuckles but I can’t see the bones on my hand unless I move my fingers and even though I’ve gone down a band size my cup size is still the same and yeah I can see my ribs on my chest under the mirror light if I hold my arms up but I need them visible all the time and I can wrap my hand right around my wrist but I can’t see my wrist bone yet.
I’ve made enough progress to be a healthy weight now but I’m so far from perfection it hurts.
This one goes out to all my normal weight/overweight rexies coming from a normal weight rexie herself because this isn’t spoken about enough.
This one goes out to all my normal weight/overweight rexies who believe their illness is never enough; which again coming from a normal weight rexie herself, your illness is no less of an illness just because you aren’t skeletal.
This one goes out to all my normal weight/overweight rexies who have to put up a fight to prove their illness because they don’t have the stereotypical rexie body; once again coming from a normal weight rexie herself.
This one goes out to all my normal weight/overweight rexies who never feel sick enough to recover; once more coming from a normal weight rexie herself.
This one goes out to all my normal weight/overweight rexies who got made a fool out of whenever they opened up about their illness; one last time, coming from a normal weight rexie herself.
I know illnesses shouldn’t be a competition because at the end of the day, anorexia is a deadly disorder no matter what size you are currently at but I decided to make this especially for all the normal weight/overweight rexies because the fact that we aren’t skeletal makes the illness even harder for us to battle.
So reblog if you relate to this or even just if you want to remind someone that their illness is no less of an illness if they don’t fit the stereotype.
i probably weigh like 1 billion lbs now
Hey people,
I was on vacation and I tried r3c0vering. That didn't really work out for me. (I am absolutely pr0 r3c0very please atleast try it if you can) I gained a lot of w3ight and now I need to lose it all.
So, guys I am back.
Some th1nsp0
Bro, I finally started losing w3ight again. Guess what....
I. GAINED. IT. ALL. BACK. IN. 2. DAYS.
GUYS, MY MOM IS SUSPICIOUS OF ME HAVING 4N4! HELP!