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Reblog if you feel fat when you look in the mirror right now.

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my sister, who has always been A LOT thinner than me, lent me her bikini to go swimming because i forgot mine at home and she’s on her period. it was too big for me. nothing was more satisfying than the way she looked at me with her eyes filled with jealousy. it works guys. starving, restricting hurts but it does work. this is no lies, you’ll get there. don’t give up and you’ll achieve your goal, you’ll be the skinniest bitch they’ve ever seen.

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august rules

these are the rules i’ll be following throughout the month of august to get my body and mind in really good shape before school starts!

1. wake up at 9am latest everyday.

2. mini-workout before shower.

3. 500 MAX daily calorie limit

4. NO JUNK. NO CARBS. only fruit, veggies & lean meats

5. drink 2-3L of water everyday

6. study study study!! at least 3 hours everyday

7. watch educational videos & podcasts everyday

8. eat only between 12pm and 7pm.

9. try to fast at least one day a week

10. face masks 3 times a week

11. grow nails & hair out

12. at least one cup of green tea per day

13. always take vitamins

14. mini-workout before bed

15. bedtime 11pm latest

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50 Calories worth of different vegetables 🥕🌽🥒

1 Medium cucumber (47)

2 Medium carrots (50)

217g Spinach (50)

62g Green peas (50)

1 Medium red onion (46)

2 Salad tomatoes (44)

1 Cup chopped red peppers (46)

200g Eggplant/Aubergine (50)

8 Celery stalks (48)

16 Asparagus spears (51)

6 Brussels sprouts (49)

50 Radishes (50)

4 Broccoli spears (44)

6 Cups iceberg lettuce (46)

100g Kale (49)

1/3 cup sweet corn (44)

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<p>this is my favorite drink for breakfast and if you make enough, it can keep you full for hours!! basically you just play around with the ratios until you’ve got the amount you want!</p>

<p>for one 8oz. drink, you need:<br /> • 1 green tea bag (0 cal)<br /> • 8 oz. (1 cup) cold water (0 cal)<br /> • ½ tsp lemon juice (0 cal)<br /> • ½ tsp 0 cal sweetener (0 cal)</p>

<p>steep the green tea in the cold water for at least 3 minutes, add the lemon juice and stir, then add the sweetener. increase the ratios to make more if you want! (in the picture i have 32~ oz and it kept me full for like five hours)

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FAT

Age 6

I was called fat by a boy a year older than me I wasn’t even fat then I cried all night when I found out what ‘fat’ meant

Age 7

I had a crush on one of my best friends He always told me that I wasn’t fat He even once sat in a way to make it look like he had rolls in his stomach so that I didn’t feel bad

Age 10

I stepped on a boy’s toe by accident He asked how much I weighed out of anger I didn’t say anything Too ashamed to admit that I weighed 67 kilograms

The boy that called me fat when I was 6 was right I am fat

Age 12

I absolutely hated myself I weighed near 80 kilograms Somehow the boys seemed to be kind to me Everyone were It felt strange

Age 13

I’m a teenager now I need to be perfect I wasn’t close to it I never kept track of my weight

Age 14

I hit 100 kilograms by February I hated my body a lot It made me depressed

Do you know what I do when I’m depressed? I eat And eat And eat And I don’t stop

Age 15

I hit 120 kilograms Disgusting If February I turned to Tumblr I discovered ‘Ana’ I lost a few kilograms But I didn’t have enough self control and gained it all back

Age 16

I went back to Tumblr I rediscovered ‘Ana’ I made a commitment I had hit 130 kilograms before I started I started counting calories I exercised two hours a day I fasted often I lost weight

Age 17

I’m back to 80 kilograms I feel amazing I look so much better My mom and dad are so proud My uncle even took me shopping for new clothes

Age 18

I’m was close to 60 kilograms in January I had to lose more Ana told me it was best I believed her

Age 19

I often pass out I’m pale I’m bony I’m in the 40’s now But it’s worth it I look beautiful Dainty Ethereal Small

Age 20

I practically live in the hospital My BMI is much lower than my age My organs are failing I’m dying But it’s all worth it Right? At least I’m not fat anymore 

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Questions I will NOT answer

I have been receiving more and more questions lately, and I guess you may )or may not) have noticed that I am not answering all of them. The reason for that is simple, I do not promote any eating disorders. Just because I run this blog does NOT mean that I encourage or glorify an eating disorder. I have been suffering from an eating disorder for years now and the only way to express myself to feel somewhat better is to create my little space here and reblog/post things that I like, that motivate me or that make me feel somehow better. So, I have been getting questions like: - I am x years old and I weigh x lbs/kgs. How do I lose weight? - How do I starve myself? - How did you lose so much weight? - How can I trick my parents?  - How can I restrict better?  - I weigh x lbs/kgs and I am x inches/cms tall, how much should I weigh? And anything similar to that. I DO NOT want to be responsible for someones struggles and problems. If you want tips, sure, I will give you some, but DO NOT expect me to give you extreme ones (e.g. you should fast for x hours). If you want unhealthy diet plans and fasting tips, then google. 

Otherwise, I am always available for you and I am more than just happy to be able to talk to you guys and help you put as much as I can. ♥ 

Love you and be safe ♥ 

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you need to

drink some fucking water you dehydrated noodle

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🌼 Friendly reminders 🌼

• Please don’t let your eating disorder ruin your relationships. If your friend doesn’t support you starving yourself or binging and purging, it doesn’t mean they’re a bad friend. It means they care about you and don’t want you harming yourself.

• It’s okay to treat yourself once in a while. Having a candy bar isn’t a binge. Be sure to have your favorite food at least twice a month (in moderation), I promise it won’t harm you or ruin your progress.

• Don’t beat yourself up if you gained a little weight. It’s perfectly normal. Do some yoga, drink some water, and start over tomorrow.

• Don’t expect everyone to understand.

• Holidays are an exception. Please eat with your family on Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter, etc. At least eat on your birthday.

• It is a disorder. Please don’t convince yourself that this is a lifestyle that we have chosen. This is terrible for our health and I feel like we all know this deep down inside. Would you want your best friend doing this? Exactly.

• Lastly, please don’t go too far. Don’t fast for over 3 days. Don’t set your calorie limit below 200 calories. Please don’t put your life at risk because you want to be thin.

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Wasted

Mom found out everything. And now she is triying to help me. I don’t want it. Save me.