Realizing How Many Times My Bestfriend Failed To Invite Me To Stuff Because 'I Forgot To Tell You' 'I

i just shotgun a monster energy and okay that's actually kinda fun (weird way to give dopamine) BUT it also is frustrating because I love drinking my monster and all but in this case it's over in like 30sec :(

IK IT'S THE GOAL BUT STILL

im so tired of gender i don't understand I'm so lost I don't know who I am anymore

never realized how much internalized transphobia I've until I started thinking that I may be transmasc and not just genderfluid

that's so weird to be honest, the way being genderfluid is kind of, a 'safety' for me, I'm scared to accept that im transmac, and I'm scared of everything it'd change?

the things I've to do today

{-} add chap 1-3 bio on anki

{ } read and highlight the chapters

{ } read the activities in each chapter and make a mind map for each

{ } download the shows and movies my mother asked me to :/ (a lot of them) (2/8)

IT'S JUNE MF

I have so much crap to do but all I want to do is draw sambucky and read ao3 fics

I hate life lmfao

I want to smoke

I was supposed to see my bestfriend and our friend tomorrow and I was so so happy about it BUT THEN I GET SICK, A FEVER???

so yeah I can't go because their exams are soon and we were gonna go shopping for their prom and all

I'm so sad now

my family's watching french news about israel-iran, and i think im gonna yell and cry if i hear one more far-right narrative. wdym the news just said "israel aint comiting a genocide against gaza", "everyone decide to invent and create a narrative against israel" "[french left wing political party] is manipulating their way to create a narrative against israel"

"I enjoy getting presents from strange men." Horror Character Appreciation - Lesley Ann Warren as Miss Scarlet in Clue (1985) dir. Jonathan Lynn