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L.I.E: Love is Exacting #11

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“Yoohoo?” Hanbin waved his hand in front of my face and I finally looked at him “I’ve been talking to you for five minutes now” he said as he put his hand back on his pocket. I looked away from him and blinked multiple times, trying to regain my consciousness. My tidily brushed hair was a mess by now. “Oh come on chill, you look like you just saw a ghost. Admit it it wasn’t that bad.” He added “I swear to God, I’m going to destroy you one day” I bluntly said to Hanbin and he stared at me for a moment before humming in realization “So this is your way of saying thanks, you’re welcome!” He sarcastically replied with a smile, then pushed my lower jaw up “now stop gagging or else you’ll get a fly stuck in your throat.” Hanbin added and put a hand over my shoulders, guiding me to wherever, and at some point I didn’t give a shit anymore. My soul embraced the skies already anyways. i was too numb he could throw me off a cliff and I wouldn’t feel a thing. was this really a part of whatever plan he had? Was I supposed to actually trust Kim Hanbin? Maybe and as crazy as his ideas sounded, he had something else in mind, so I just hoped for the best. soon I detached myself from Hanbin’s hold and walked away, looking nowhere but at the small stand selling snacks, where my beloved chocolate milk was. “One strawberry milk please” Hanbin told the seller from behind me “One chocolate milk please” i said “No just one strawberry milk” Hanbin said again and I made a face “Whats your problem” I grumbled “Rule number three: Never be afraid to try new things” was all I got from him as he paid for the beverage then gave it to me. “But I hate this” “Are you even listening to what I say” “I don’t want it” “Deal with it, goddamn.” Hanbin snapped and looked at me with an annoyed face. if there was some beverage I hated the most it’d be strawberry milk. and he sure knew it, or at least knew that I liked the chocolate flavored one. I’d slap him if he’s just playing around. Throwing Hanbin a disgusted look I quietly opened the packaging and started drinking, soon flinching at the ever so bothersome taste. “From now on you’re going to drink this only, or at least when you’re with me” he added as he walked somewhere else, me trailing behind him “You suck” I murmured and he seemed to hear me since he soon replied “you’ll thank me later” After a bit of walking Hanbin stopped and turned to me, “I think we should go on the Ferris wheel and wrap up this day, I’m sick of your whining, you’re a slow learner” he noted and I stared at the huge turning circle. Wasn’t this for kids? Or couples? Or anything Kim Hajin wasn’t? “What? Dont tell me you’re afraid of this too, cause that’d be really lame. come on let’s go” hanbin said after noticing I was staring at the ride before he grabbed my hand and walked towards it, intertwining our fingers soon after. “W-wait what the hell” I muttered as my heartbeat quickened. “What now” “People are watching” “Uhh, so what?” “You have a girlfriend for God’s sake” “Do they know that? No. Stop making life complicated for once, would you?” Hanbin snapped at me for the umpteenth time today and lead me by the shoulders We continued marching towards the ride, or more like Hanbin dragging me towards it, me biting my lips the whole way, I just hoped no one I knew was there. We got on one of the cabinets and soon the ride started, our cabinet gradually increasing in height as time passed. “the view is good from here” Hanbin commented “What’s good about it” “Are you serious” he gave me a look and I almost scowled “What kind of kid are you, it’s just the city you see everyday but from above” I reasoned and he looked outside again, as if confirming “But it really looks beautiful” he defended and I rolled my eyes, he can be such a five year old Hanbin suddenly cupped my cheeks and Forced me to look at the view, “look closely” he said “W-what are you doing! D-don’t touch me!” I freaked out as I felt my face getting red “Just look, look at how the tall treets look like small bushes, look at how the vehicles look like kids’ toys, look at the setting sun painting everything orange. And see that river? That’s probably where we hung out last time” Hanbin started pointing out every detail of the scenery and I gradually began to appreciate every part of it. I never knew it was this beautiful. I never knew the plain city i saw everyday would ever look so appealing to me. “.. it’s really beautiful” i found myself muttering in awe as my eyes got glued to the view, that before i felt a smack on my head “Of course you rascal! That’s what I’ve been trying to point out since earlier.” He sighed “it’s all about perspective, it depends on the glasses you’re wearing in order to see this world. If your glasses are blurry or broken, you can’t enjoy the beauty of your surroundings, therefore you can never appreciate it. This is what Rule number four is about: Fix your glasses.” “Yah all what you’re saying is good and all but it sounds weird coming from you” “Is this an insult” “Well you just don’t look that smart okay just saying ” “That IS an insult! look at this ungrateful rascal” “… Thanks” I chuckled and looked away - “So, what did you learn today” Hanbin started as we finally walked back home after the Ferris wheel ride. “Hmm, forget about one two three, never be afraid to try new things, and fix your glasses. On a side note from where did you get these cliche phrases though” I answered, recapitulating the main ideas of what that mad man was saying all day. “I just made them up. And from now you’re going to keep every rule I mention in mind” Hanbin answered cockily, sounding too amused probably by the fact that he was controlling me, what a kid. “Including drinking strawberry milk” he added and I groaned but he suddenly got a freaking strawberry milk package from his jacket’s pocket and handed it to me “From where the hell did you get this” “You don’t need to know” was all I got. I pouted and opened the package because did I even have another option. I could only follow what Hanbin says even when he’s just saying whatever comes up first in his head “Hey” Hanbin started again “Hmm” I replied, making a face after taking another sip from the unpleasant beverage in my hand “I’m not trying to sound creepy or I don’t know but that guy you always stay with- what was his name?” “Byungjoo?” “Yeah” “what is it about him” “You… are you guys dating” “No, what makes you think that” “Just saying, because you never really spend time with anyone else but him” “Because he’s my best friend, and my only friend” “What about me” “Are you really comparing” “Sure, why not” I stopped “You’re spending more time with me lately, doesn’t that mean I’m close to you now” Hanbin said and I rolled my eyes in disbelief “So just because you’re bothering me more often lately you think we’re close?” “Don’t close people bother each other” “We’re not close Hanbin. No such thing would ever happen” I muttered. Because really being close to Hanbin in a status other than dating him wasn’t and would never be on my list “Why are you this secretive” he bluntly asked “I’m not secretive. I’m just telling you to not get too interfered with me.” “Then stop doing that.” Hanbin stopped walking and eyed me “I want to get closer to you, more than him.” he added “Byungjoo was also at the amusement park. That’s why I was acting that way before we got on the Ferris wheel.” My jaw dropped as my brain replayed what happened back at the amusement park. If someone was watching from afar they would legit only see a quarrelling couple. And to think that Byungjoo was there, I felt more than horrible. “I think it makes no sense that we’re hanging out but you still saying that we aren’t close. You’re overflowing with secrets. And I hate it.” He snapped and left me dumbfounded. Well fuck.

L.I.E: Love is Exacting #6

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“Its okay, cry” Byungjoo almost whispered above my head “it’s okay to let out from time to time” he added I honestly had no idea how long have we been standing like this, but I couldn’t care less. It felt really good to cry against Byungjoo as his hand soothingly caressed my back in silence. I had tried to form a coherent sentence several times but ended up giving up as my sobs and hiccups took over and my brain was a whole mess. Gradually, my sobs silenced as I had enough from crying; I felt like my whole body drained and my head would explode at any moment then. The bell had rung a few moments ago but I couldn’t care less, I had History class and even when our teacher was good I was in no state to assist. After a few moments, Byungjoo detached his arms from me and ruffled my hair “Go home now okay? You need to rest and everything will be alright” he softly whispered, “I need to go now, my math teacher will skin me if I arrive later than this” he added and unwillingly stepped backwards. “Take care” Byungjoo finally said and left the rooftop. It felt good crying after all, I felt like I let out a bit. I had too much kept in, and it felt better to let out some. and as much as I wanted to pass out from the massive headache, I decided to stay more in the rooftop. The cold weather helped cool down my burning head, plus I couldn’t just go down the halls with this mess of a face. just as I started appreciating the silence and loneliness again, I could see a figure from the corner of my eye; a figure that soon halted his steps as he looked taken aback at what seemed to be my face, a figure that I immediately recognized. “Get out” I coldly muttered. This wasn’t the time for Kim Hanbin. This just wasn’t. “Whats wrong, hey don’t cry” hanbin said, almost sounding worried as his right thumb ran smooth against my red cheek attempting to wipe the remaining tears I had on my face. And as much as I would’ve appreciated his touch if I was in a good mood, it felt more than bothering at that moment that I found myself pushing his arm away, no eye contact made. I could feel Hanbin staring down at me for a moment before he awkwardly put his hand back in his pocket and sat next to me. “Bother to tell me what happened?” He asked again after some time “No” I simply replied, tone as cold as earlier. He just needed to leave. I was having a good time alone. Did he have to interrupt it “It’s not of you to ditch History. I mean, I was ditching that too but had other plans before I went past the classroom and didn’t see you there” Hanbin started again, he sounded too awkward and desperate to start a conversation which left me wondering why the heck did he even come to talk to me. “Why” I replied shortly again “Don’t I have the right to worry” Hanbin chuckled and said “No” I answered, finally looking at him after noticing his weird gaze towards me, “what are you looking at?” I confusedly asked “Are you even hearing yourself? You’re looking like a beaten squirrel, ditching classes, answering what I say with a single word or silence and tell me I don’t have the right to worry?” “BECAUSE NO ONE ASKED YOU TO” I finally snapped. Loudly. Holy shit I messed up. I fucking messed up. But guess what? I couldn’t care less. “Stop acting like you know me or anything!!” I added and I honestly think this is the first time I had spoken this loud to anyone. Well at least as far as I remember. “I told you to get out earlier” I said again, sounding more restrained “Alright.. ” Hanbin finally spoke up after staying quiet for a moment, and I would be lying if I said his tone didn’t frighten me. “I see then. But just saying, I won’t be leaving till you’re feeling better” he added, looking nowhere but at the ceiling and I almost snarled, fishing out my earphones out of my pocket and plugging them on. - I had no idea how much time passed and how long have I been staying here, around eight replays of my favorite song. But one thing was sure and it’s that Kim Hanbin was still sitting there. I slightly turned his way, giving him an aren’t-you-giving-up look when we locked eyes, to which he replied with a small childish smile and I rolled my eyes, looking away. What a kid. a few moments later and I got used to ignoring Hanbin’s existence, and he was nice for staying quiet which helped in so. I was totally sad, pissed, frustrated, I didn’t know what was it but I sure as hell wasn’t in a good mood, and I didn’t know why. I relieved stress with Byungjoo’s help, why was I still like this? Maybe I just need time to be alone then reboot. “Maybe you just need to play this” okay, did I just say that out loud? Because Hanbin was back to sticking to me again and this time, he extended his hand, showing me his phone. I glanced at the screen trying my best to ignore the fact that he was way too close to me that I could hear his excited breathing. It was a weird game full of colors, and there was this little white round bouncy thing in the middle of the screen, its numerous arms kept swirling around, it even had a face. I snickered “What’s this” I said and it didn’t even sound like a question, I was way too done with Kim Hanbin for having this sort of ridiculous game in his phone. “Just play alright, the instructions are in the screen” he urged and put the device between my hands “W-what are you doing” I said and almost hit myself for stuttering, but he just casually touched me so suddenly and I really wasn’t ready for it, I ducked my head down and pretended to be immersed in whatever was displayed in his phone. it was a weird game indeed, you had to move that bouncy thing by pressing left and right and dodge some black creepy round things which I guessed were evil by the way they were drawn. And in a matter of seconds I got so concentrated on the game as I got a hold of how it went. It was rather fun after all. “You’re doing well” Hanbin commented after watching me play for some time, sounding rather impressed “look, I died, happy now?” I made a face at him as my creature hit an evil one and died Hanbin extended his hand to retrieve his phone but I was quicker and yanked it away “Wait, I want to play more” I almost whined, as I tapped the Play button again “This thing is way too cute” I said between my chuckles as the white ball was so squishy and adorable, and as much as I was concentrated on the game, I didn’t fail to notice Hanbin actually creeping at me and not staring at the screen, and I honestly felt hella uncomfortable considering the fact that he was already too close. “Yay highscore!” I cheered as I made a new highscore in the game, satisfied by the fact that I scored better than him “Tell me the name of this game I’ll download it” I asked Hanbin as I handed him back his phone “You wish, I’ll only let you play it in my phone” he snapped and placed the device back in his pocket “Why? So you’d brag about MY scores to your friends?” I frowned “No, so I’d watch you fangirling ridiculously at it, you should’ve seen your face” hanbin simply answered and stood up. I bit the inner of my mouth as I averted his gaze, feeling blood rush up to my cheeks.

“Get up, you shouldn’t stay here more” he added and I did as told, Hanbin was right, it was getting cloder and the rooftop wasn’t really the best place to stay in. I followed behind Hanbin downstairs, making sure to keep a safe distance from him. - This had been in my notes for like a month and I was lazy to post it, it actually didn’t end up the way I wanted but well.

#7

Her

“I’m afraid of her. She’s always there. She tells me I’m ugly and stupid, and appears whenever I feel good about myself to prove me wrong. I’m really afraid of her She even appears in my dreams, when I close my eyes I see her, when I open them too. I have no idea when would she appear. And it’s scary. She is scary. And i want her to leave me alone. But she will never do. She will kill me one day and that is for sure” “Who is she” “Me. I am really afraid of myself. I am really afraid that I can’t stand myself, I am really afraid to even close by eyes because I’d see her . Does that even make sense?” “Bin-ah, I really don’t want to be scared of myself I really want to love myself Bin-ah, Please save me.”

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3. Makeup

4. Food

5. Soft stuff

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Dark Red Flowers: Minhyuk (MONSTA X)

Inspired by @kuromel ’s post It’s been ages since I’ve wanted to write this but well now I did and it’s short ang it sucks I’m sorry bye

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The two walk back home down the street they knew very well, it was too familiar they could cross it blindfolded. Minhyuk glances down at the girl on his left and his heart flutters again. 

How the her glassy eyes reflect the beautiful orange sky of that evening, how her cute usual ponytail bounced with each step she took, how her pink lips are always curled up in a cute smile; Minhyuk almost found her beautiful ethereal.

He liked her, he liked her a lot even though he knew he wasn’t supposed to. She was his best friend and he knew that very well, but he wanted to be more than that.

He wanted to be the first to tell her good morning, he wanted to tightly hug her as he caresses her silky hair, he wanted to hold her hand and walk together, both thinking only of each other, and mostly he wanted her to look at him that way. The same way he looked at her, not as a best friend, but as a lover.

As they walk they notice the small flower shop in the way preparing to close, as well as a few other stores that didn’t open up till a late hour. And being the flower lover she is, she had to stop by and spend some quality time with them

“Dark red flowers. It means I Love you” Minhyuk voices out as he notices her gaze fixed on one type of flowers

“Really?” Her eyes sparkle and a huge smile spreads on her face as she looks at them before picking some

“Then i’ll take these” she says to the old woman as she hands her a few flowers 

Minhyuk watches in silence but tries his best not to break down, he musters up his courage and tries being the best friend she thinks he is

“Oooh Are you giving it to someone~?” He coos at her jokingly, though if you focus more his tone has no emotions

“Hmm” she says as a small smile tickles her lips and a slight blush creeps up her cheeks

“… Who is it” he blurts out, hesitant but still curiousity taking the best of him

“You know him, ina’s brother, Yoo Kihyun… Don’t tell anyone!!!”

Minhyuk stands in his place for a second. Now if this wasn’t his friend. 

“A-aaah… don’t worry of course I won’t tell” he mutters and fakes a chuckle.

He didn’t hate Kihyun for that. He was a really kind nice guy with decent features and a great voice, and top of all, his friend.

He is just too devastated by the fact that she is in love with the one he only thought she looks at him as an older brother. 

“Really?! You’re the bestest best friend someone could ever have Minhyukie~” she says in content as she smiles up at him.

Though shattered, Minhyuk smiles back.

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2: what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?Probably anything I wrote in my awkward era aka cringey af fics from middle school *is disgusted*6:  something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change nowIt's probably the characters. Since I use Kpop idols names, for example I thought earlier of changing L.I.E's main character from Hanbin of iKON to Seyong of Myname bc I thought for a second that the role would suit him more, but then I said to myself that the story is like halfway through and I can't change such a thing now.Thanks for asking ! Have a great day

L.I.E: Love is Exacting #8

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"I feel saturated and.. I'm just sick of everything"

"Don't you think it's the right time for you to stop all of this" Hanbin asked in a serious tone and I looked up at him; clueless "You're destroying your own self as every second passes by. Just put an end to it. Who cares how you look or what you do? You're just you. Why would they judge you for being yourself? What is it that they have more than you that makes you think they're better? They're just them too. Not more not less. I think you're more jealous of the fact they manage to be themselves" he added in a matter of fact tone and I couldn't say that he wasn't right. "Because everyone's naturally cool, and then there is me, pretending to. All of them out there are pretty, cute, smart, perfect without even trying. And I'm just... I just want to experience that at least once" I didn't know what was it, but something made me spill everything in front of Hanbin. it's like he had some key to make me admit everything without feeling burdened or uncomfortable. "experience what" Hanbin asked, and I felt like he was trying to get something particular out of my mouth "being satisfied with myself for just one day" I replied honestly, avoiding looking at him in the eyes because his gaze was seriously tempting. Almost terrifying. As if he was warning me not to dare and lie to him. And I didn't. "what is your image of satisfying then" he insisted and I stayed quiet. This took me off guard. And I almost slapped myself after realizing I never really thought of this.   "see? You don't even have an answer. You know why?" Hanbin sighed and I bit my lip, it felt more like he was scolding me, "look idiot, you might not believe me but I don't care. All of these girls you're claiming to be pretty and smart and other stuff I can't process, all of them, are envious of you for having these, all of them rant all day long about how nice your sense of fashion is whatsoever... and it becomes annoying sometimes honestly because I have no interest in all of this" he admitted "How do you even know" I grumbled, come on, he wasn't going to be this lame, was he? "Ahem, you're talking to Kim Hanbin here" He simply reasoned, as if his name was sort of FBI or some trusted source. But it made some sense since he was always around girls, and some even share their gossips with him. I sighed. "Some people just grow to be a contradiction of what they want to be. They become perfectionists. And their image of perfect is anyone else but them" "--And they end up suiciding or overtaking pills due to low self esteem" Hanbin interrupted. I looked at him and we locked eyes. "Bet you don't want to end up like this" I looked away. I wasn't going to end up like this. I totally wasn't. I was mentally capable enough not to harm myself. Hanbin was just bullshitting about the stories bandied about in newspapers. "Think about this" he finally said before he got up and left. - Days passed and I never talked to Hanbin after that, but his words were still stuck in my head. I kept thinking of all of what he said and it was quite uncomfortable. Because the more I thought of it the more I believed he was mentally unstable. Yet deep down inside a part of me knew he was right. And as much as I tried to deny it, I needed Hanbin's help, whatever it was. and that is how I found myself sitting on my desk waiting for everyone to get out to talk to Hanbin. When I was sure no one was inside the classroom except a sleeping Hanbin -which I didn't care about- I rolled my eyes once more at whatever stupid act I was about to do and marched my way towards his desk in the far end of the room. "Yah" I hesitantly called "Hmm.." was all what I got from the boy, he didn't even move a muscle. Tsk. I cursed under my breathe. As if this wasn't already hard enough. Frustrated I directed a kick towards his tibia and he jumped up from his seat, his head perked up to see who was it. Groaning in pain or more like whining like a toddler Hanbin put his head back on his desk, eyes closed. "Yah I need to talk to you" I said in  restraint tone, hoping he'd notice my existence fully this time. "Just five more minutes.." Hanbin almost begged and I tried my best keeping in the back of my head how cute he sounded and how much I wanted to squeeze his puffed cheeks and--- okay. "Just five more minutes and I'd be halfway home" "Then just one.." he grumbled again and I rolled my eyes, he sure was in a whole other world. 4:34PM my phone indicated, "there, your minute passed" I informed Hanbin and he finally opened his holy graced eyes and lazily got up and leaned on his chair "What makes you wake me up this cruelly" a sleepy Hanbin murmured as he rubbed his eye "classes are done and you had to wake up anyways don't make me the bad guy here" I stated "Whatever, what do you want, and why are you talking to me in class" Hanbin questioned in full puzzlement and I realized we had never talked in class. It was like we were strangers when both of us stepped in. And I was weirdly glad he still treated me the same way, because I didn't want any of my classmates questioning shit. "Because no one is here, idiot. Look, I-I.. I have something to tell you" yes Hajin, what would you like to do else to make it sound more like a confession? Blush? Check. "What is it" Hanbin replied, more awake now "About what you said the other day. I was wondering if you... would you--" I halted as I heard someone opening the door wider and getting in. It was Byungjoo. And he eyed us both weirdly. Awkward. "What is happening here" Byungjoo asked, his tone curious and scary at the same time as he looked between me and Hanbin. "Nothing" I smiled up to him, "Don't forget to get your essay done by tomorrow Kim Hanbin, huh?" I randomly bluffed to Hanbin to make sure Byungjoo wasn't the least suspicious. Because as class president I had the authority to remind students of their homework, exam dates, and other boring stuff. "Let's go" I told Byungjoo and we both exited the room, with me ignoring the fact that Hanbin's gaze was digging holes against my back.

#9

L.I.E: Love is Exacting#4

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I bluntly walked home, mind in deep thoughts thus occasionally bumping against Byungjoo who was walking next to me. I knew he found it weird, but didn't talk. I was glad. Because I didn't want to talk about it too. Let alone to Byungjoo. 

I've heard it this morning. It was about Hanbin. And I feel so stupid for not knowing this earlier. My whole life was a lie. Hanbin wasn't dating Nayoung. He wasn't. He fucking wasn't, for the love of God, why didn't I happen to hear this anytime before? He and Nayoung were just close friends. He was dating another girl though, another girl that the only thing I knew about her was that her name was Mirae; damn it. I didn't know her. Never saw her. Never heard of her. And I hated it. 

Thinking Hanbin was dating Nayoung made me almost estimate his ideal type, someone like Nayoung; wavy hair, plump lips, petite height and cheerful spirit. However I didn't now this Mirae. How did she look like? How was her personality? Was she short or tall? Fair or tanned? Did she have big puppy eyes or-- 

"Hey watch out" I was brought back to reality when Byungjoo grabbed me by the wrist, moving me aside as I almost hit the pole. I seriously was so deep in thoughts to know where was I walking. 

"Thanks" I muttered 

"Pay attention to your steps okay?" Byungjoo replied and silence fell again 

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He said again, not really demanding, but just friendly offering 

"no" I replied, Byungjoo was the last person I'd tell about this, well, ahem, after Hanbin, but you get what I mean. 

We parted ways as we reached my house, bid goodbyes and both went in.. 

"I'm home" I quietly muttered, enough for someone in the kitchen or the living room to hear. 

Pushing the door to my room open, I threw my backpack somewhere and took off my uniform's jacket, throwing it also over the bed as I laid down. 

I sighed. 

I was tired. Mentally and physically. And I honestly felt so frustrated about Mirae. I was ready to hack into Hanbin's phone and know how did she look like. I was this pathetic. I'd never even try to deny. 

I wanted to know how did she look like. I wanted to know what kind of girls did he like. And I was more than ready to change my style to that. Kill me. I was this insecure. I wanted to impress him so bad. I wanted to date him so bad. Yet look at this, I'm the girl whom he thought was quiet and shit like everyone did but now he thinks I'm bratty as fuck. Great. 

Slipping under my blankets, I felt a lump forming inside my throat, and I knew what was coming next. My eyes got watery. My nose and cheeks felt hot and in few seconds I felt a drop of water sliding down my temple. I cried. A lot. I've always did. For ridiculous reasons. For nonsensical reasons even me didn't know. I was this lame. I made a big deal out of everything and in the end my anger and frustration would turn into tears. 

After a while my eyes felt so heavy and my throat hurt from keeping my sobs silent, and I soon drifted to sleep. I couldn't care less if mom called me for dinner, I'd just tell her I was feeling queasy. And I was more than happy I didn't have homework because my head hurt way too much to deal with studies. 

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I woke the next morning looking dead panned. My eyes were way too puffy and eyeliner was everywhere; that’s what you get from sleeping with your make up on Kim Hajin. Washing up quickly I took a new clean uniform out of my closet, noting to myself to wash the other one that evening. Drying my hair had always been a pain in the ass because it gets so annoying and hard to tame however today I had no time to run a Straightener through it all so I just did my short bangs and secured the rest with a clip, today was going to be fucked up anyways. 

I hoped make up would hide my puffy eyes as I put more concealer than usual and drew my liner down longer to give a puppy eye effect which would make the left appearing puffiness look natural, well, I hoped. 

Messily finishing off I put my books in my backpack and hurried downstairs; Byungjoo was already bitching about how late it was. On our way I tried my best looking anywhere but at Byungjoo so he wouldn't notice, or else I have to go through a questionary. Mentally cursing, I remembered that I didn't bring my hoodie as it was cold and I was straight out of the shower. But well I already mentioned that this day was going to be fucked up. 

 - 

 It was reccess time and I went up to the roof again, Byungjoo's teacher didn't let them leave since they had a test so I was alone. 

"Hey" I quickly turned and it was Hanbin. and I could swear this was the fastest I ever reacted to a call. Man he startled me. This is the first time I come here in recess time how did he know I'd be here? Or was he even searching for me? 

"Hmm" I replied trying to sound as null as possible, that was my way of doing "seen" in real life. 

"Is anything wrong" he asked as he walked closer 

"you looked off" he added and I bitterly laughed, he actually noticed, but he was indeed funny. 

"Everything is always wrong" I answered and I felt him staring at me longer than normal and I was getting a bit nervous. 

 "What's wrong with your eyes?" he asked again and I felt his cold hand against the apple of my right cheek. His touch sent a shiver down my spine and my heart pounded faster. I looked up at him. Shit he just noticed. 

"Huh? What?" I tried sounding as clueless as ever 

"What do you mean by what, you look like a beaten squirrel" he said, looking surprisingly concerned and I chuckled 

"Hey, you really know nothing about make up. I just drew my tear line deeper today" I made up, sounding natural as I lied; I've always did. Yet I didn't expect him to notice, some of my classmates commented at it as antear line, why did he have to notice otherwise. 

"Is that so? Alright" he bought my bluff and I mentally pumped my fist. 

It was getting chillier and I saw myself getting sick tonight. And that was confirmed when I quietly sneezed and Hanbin looked as if he couldn't hold his laugh. 

"Bless you" he muttered between his chuckles and I wrinkled my nose. My sneeze was always quiet and high pitched. 

Soon enough Hanbin took of his hoodie and put it over my shoulders, pulling the big Hood over my head, it was reaching my nose so I was seeing nothing but I bet I looked ridiculous. 

"Hey I'm okay" I pushed the Hood up enough to lock eyes with him 

"Are you even talking back" he said and I stayed silent, taken aback of his reply. And it somehow reminded me of what happened with Byungjoo the other day, but Byungjoo had a reason. Or did Hanbin actually-- 

No. 

No he didn't, Hajin. Hanbin left the roof and I trailed far enough behind him. I was screwed. I was way too screwed. What if his girlfriend saw me with this hood on? What was wrong with him? Was he intentionally putting in problems? I don't even know the girl so I'd hide from her, it might be any girl I don't know. I just hoped no one would notice the missing logo because I had the exact same dark gray hood but with a little V on the left. 

Yet I felt my heart stopping for a moment as a girl walked into the classroom and her eyes landed on me for an unexpectedly long time. 

"Mirae!" I heard Hanbin call and the girl took a longer look at me before she marched to the back the room. 

I sighed in relief and that was when I realized I was actually holding my breath that whole time.

It was her, Mirae. I was sure now, she felt suspicious for a moment. Yet I didn't see her face. I was way too nervous that I kept my eyes glued to my desk, having nothing but a blurry vision of her skirt. 

Oh well, guess matching Hanbin's ideal type will have to wait more.

#5

a variety show where two groups switch leaders for a month