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“Yoohoo?” Hanbin waved his hand in front of my face and I finally looked at him “I’ve been talking to you for five minutes now” he said as he put his hand back on his pocket. I looked away from him and blinked multiple times, trying to regain my consciousness. My tidily brushed hair was a mess by now. “Oh come on chill, you look like you just saw a ghost. Admit it it wasn’t that bad.” He added “I swear to God, I’m going to destroy you one day” I bluntly said to Hanbin and he stared at me for a moment before humming in realization “So this is your way of saying thanks, you’re welcome!” He sarcastically replied with a smile, then pushed my lower jaw up “now stop gagging or else you’ll get a fly stuck in your throat.” Hanbin added and put a hand over my shoulders, guiding me to wherever, and at some point I didn’t give a shit anymore. My soul embraced the skies already anyways. i was too numb he could throw me off a cliff and I wouldn’t feel a thing. was this really a part of whatever plan he had? Was I supposed to actually trust Kim Hanbin? Maybe and as crazy as his ideas sounded, he had something else in mind, so I just hoped for the best. soon I detached myself from Hanbin’s hold and walked away, looking nowhere but at the small stand selling snacks, where my beloved chocolate milk was. “One strawberry milk please” Hanbin told the seller from behind me “One chocolate milk please” i said “No just one strawberry milk” Hanbin said again and I made a face “Whats your problem” I grumbled “Rule number three: Never be afraid to try new things” was all I got from him as he paid for the beverage then gave it to me. “But I hate this” “Are you even listening to what I say” “I don’t want it” “Deal with it, goddamn.” Hanbin snapped and looked at me with an annoyed face. if there was some beverage I hated the most it’d be strawberry milk. and he sure knew it, or at least knew that I liked the chocolate flavored one. I’d slap him if he’s just playing around. Throwing Hanbin a disgusted look I quietly opened the packaging and started drinking, soon flinching at the ever so bothersome taste. “From now on you’re going to drink this only, or at least when you’re with me” he added as he walked somewhere else, me trailing behind him “You suck” I murmured and he seemed to hear me since he soon replied “you’ll thank me later” After a bit of walking Hanbin stopped and turned to me, “I think we should go on the Ferris wheel and wrap up this day, I’m sick of your whining, you’re a slow learner” he noted and I stared at the huge turning circle. Wasn’t this for kids? Or couples? Or anything Kim Hajin wasn’t? “What? Dont tell me you’re afraid of this too, cause that’d be really lame. come on let’s go” hanbin said after noticing I was staring at the ride before he grabbed my hand and walked towards it, intertwining our fingers soon after. “W-wait what the hell” I muttered as my heartbeat quickened. “What now” “People are watching” “Uhh, so what?” “You have a girlfriend for God’s sake” “Do they know that? No. Stop making life complicated for once, would you?” Hanbin snapped at me for the umpteenth time today and lead me by the shoulders We continued marching towards the ride, or more like Hanbin dragging me towards it, me biting my lips the whole way, I just hoped no one I knew was there. We got on one of the cabinets and soon the ride started, our cabinet gradually increasing in height as time passed. “the view is good from here” Hanbin commented “What’s good about it” “Are you serious” he gave me a look and I almost scowled “What kind of kid are you, it’s just the city you see everyday but from above” I reasoned and he looked outside again, as if confirming “But it really looks beautiful” he defended and I rolled my eyes, he can be such a five year old Hanbin suddenly cupped my cheeks and Forced me to look at the view, “look closely” he said “W-what are you doing! D-don’t touch me!” I freaked out as I felt my face getting red “Just look, look at how the tall treets look like small bushes, look at how the vehicles look like kids’ toys, look at the setting sun painting everything orange. And see that river? That’s probably where we hung out last time” Hanbin started pointing out every detail of the scenery and I gradually began to appreciate every part of it. I never knew it was this beautiful. I never knew the plain city i saw everyday would ever look so appealing to me. “.. it’s really beautiful” i found myself muttering in awe as my eyes got glued to the view, that before i felt a smack on my head “Of course you rascal! That’s what I’ve been trying to point out since earlier.” He sighed “it’s all about perspective, it depends on the glasses you’re wearing in order to see this world. If your glasses are blurry or broken, you can’t enjoy the beauty of your surroundings, therefore you can never appreciate it. This is what Rule number four is about: Fix your glasses.” “Yah all what you’re saying is good and all but it sounds weird coming from you” “Is this an insult” “Well you just don’t look that smart okay just saying ” “That IS an insult! look at this ungrateful rascal” “… Thanks” I chuckled and looked away - “So, what did you learn today” Hanbin started as we finally walked back home after the Ferris wheel ride. “Hmm, forget about one two three, never be afraid to try new things, and fix your glasses. On a side note from where did you get these cliche phrases though” I answered, recapitulating the main ideas of what that mad man was saying all day. “I just made them up. And from now you’re going to keep every rule I mention in mind” Hanbin answered cockily, sounding too amused probably by the fact that he was controlling me, what a kid. “Including drinking strawberry milk” he added and I groaned but he suddenly got a freaking strawberry milk package from his jacket’s pocket and handed it to me “From where the hell did you get this” “You don’t need to know” was all I got. I pouted and opened the package because did I even have another option. I could only follow what Hanbin says even when he’s just saying whatever comes up first in his head “Hey” Hanbin started again “Hmm” I replied, making a face after taking another sip from the unpleasant beverage in my hand “I’m not trying to sound creepy or I don’t know but that guy you always stay with- what was his name?” “Byungjoo?” “Yeah” “what is it about him” “You… are you guys dating” “No, what makes you think that” “Just saying, because you never really spend time with anyone else but him” “Because he’s my best friend, and my only friend” “What about me” “Are you really comparing” “Sure, why not” I stopped “You’re spending more time with me lately, doesn’t that mean I’m close to you now” Hanbin said and I rolled my eyes in disbelief “So just because you’re bothering me more often lately you think we’re close?” “Don’t close people bother each other” “We’re not close Hanbin. No such thing would ever happen” I muttered. Because really being close to Hanbin in a status other than dating him wasn’t and would never be on my list “Why are you this secretive” he bluntly asked “I’m not secretive. I’m just telling you to not get too interfered with me.” “Then stop doing that.” Hanbin stopped walking and eyed me “I want to get closer to you, more than him.” he added “Byungjoo was also at the amusement park. That’s why I was acting that way before we got on the Ferris wheel.” My jaw dropped as my brain replayed what happened back at the amusement park. If someone was watching from afar they would legit only see a quarrelling couple. And to think that Byungjoo was there, I felt more than horrible. “I think it makes no sense that we’re hanging out but you still saying that we aren’t close. You’re overflowing with secrets. And I hate it.” He snapped and left me dumbfounded. Well fuck.
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“Huh?"
He’s kidding me. Now he’s got to be kidding me. why would I be tutoring him? And how would that even be beneficial to me? And how would I get mom to accept meeting with a boy in the weekend? And when did he even give a shit about studies in the first place?
"That’s right” Hanbin put his hands in his pockets.
“Are you crazy mom would never accept” I replied.
“come on mothers love me” he said and I rolled my eyes.
“give me that phone” he said as he snatched the device from my hands.
“Hey!” I tried retrieving my phone back from him as I watched him easily unlocking it And accessing the contacts.
“How do you even know my secret pattern” I asked, still struggling to get my device back.
“You can say I spied" he simply replied.
“Hello Auntie!” Hanbin suddenly said and I realized he had already dialed mom’s number. My jaw dropped as I froze.
Oh crap.
I’m doomed.
“Don’t worry, I’m Hajin’s classmate"
*oh goodness*
"Auntie you know how your daughter is a good student and all, and I’m not that good with maths. So I wanted to ask if it was okay if she’d tutor me this weekend…. yeah in my house"
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU CRAZY” I mouthed to Hanbin as I ran to take the phone away from him but he had always been way faster.
“don’t worry my mother will be there. She teaches here and Hajin knows her…. yeah, yeah I’m sure…. it’d be very nice if you accept Auntie please?” Hanbin kept talking and I almost slapped him for the tone he was using, I mean was he just doing aegyo to mom? I’m so getting questioned when I get home.
“Thanks Auntie! Have a good day!” He finished and hung up.
“WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU’RE FREAKING DOING– UGH” I scolded Hanbin as he finally gave me my phone back, the huge idiotic smile never leaving his face. He knew he just threw me in trouble.
“Booking myself a tutoring session?” Hanbin casually answered, as if it was the most logical thing on earth. God can I slap him.
“what the hell I’m dead meat tonight” I scoffed and eyed him disgustedly.
“Oh come on she said yes what else could go wrong"
"My life could go wrong! she was probably being nice just because–” I was cut off by Hanbin literally pinching my lips shut and that’s how I turned into a seal making the weirdest sounds, whining how much it fucking hurt. What the heck goes on his mind when he does stuff like these? And the fact that he was my goddamned freaking crush made it worse since Kim Hanbin was the king of skinship.
“Rule number one; don’t whine over plotwists.” He said and I looked at him as if he was crazy.
“when life throws lemons at you, you make a lemonade” he explained.
“More like you throw them back at Kim Hanbin” I grumbled and he turned to me.
“See? You can’t even accept a plotwist of lemons then what about real life problems!” Hanbin almost scolded me and I had nothing to say.
“You’re tutoring me and that’s part of the plan. This is your first step, deal with it” he added and left. I huffed and exited the rooftop soon after
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“So who’s that guy who called?"
"A classmate” I answered mom before taking a bite of my muffin.
“And you really know his mother?"
"Yeah she taught me before”
“Be careful though” my mother quietly said then took a sip of her coffee
“Hmm” I replied and went upstairs.
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I sighed one more time as I looked down at my outfit; a very plain black skirt matched with a red flannel, black stockings, shoes and purse. I was waiting for Hanbin to appear for about ten minutes now, what a penctual human being.
Clutching my hands tighter against my notebook, I looked around once more for a trace of Kim Hanbin.
“Hey, let’s go"
"Hi I’m fine thanks for asking” I scoffed at Hanbin as he came and tried dragging me with him two seconds after. I mean, I swear to God there are other ways to accompany someone other than shoving them everywhere.
“Yeah yeah drop them formalities. the bus is going"
"Wait what bu—” without even being able to finish Hanbin grabbed my hand and ran towards the bus a few meters away from us.
Wait.
Okay what the hell. I was supposed to wait for him here because I didn’t know where he exactly lived.
This wasn’t how it worked. This wasn’t how any of this worked. But there was something I was sure of and it was that Kim Hanbin needed to stop casually touching me all of a sudden because even though I could say I’m chill with him now my heart still skips a beat whenever he held my hand or touched my cheek.
“Where the heck are you taking me” I whispered to Hanbin as soon as we were seated down And got my forehead flicked almost immediately.
“remember rule number one” was all I got from him afterwards. I wrinkled my nose at him as I rubbed my sour forehead, hoping Kim Hanbin wasn’t taking me to the infinity and beyond.
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“…You’ve got to be kidding me” I said in disbelief as the two of us stood in front of the huge gates of…. well, Lotte World.
“Such a shame to waste a good day like this studying huh?” Hanbin said giving me the famous ‘ha? Waddaya say?’ Look and I stared at him dumbfounded.
“But what the hell what do I do with this notebook now, and how am I supposed to survive here with a skirt, and why didn’t you even tell me to dress casually–” I started ranting, since I looked more like an emo human being in that colorful place, then soon got cut off by an annoyed Hanbin.
“Rule number one you rascal,” he snapped, “First i swear to god you won’t die holding a notebook inside Lotte World. Second,” he smirked, looking down at my skirt and I gulped, “don’t worry I’m a gentleman I don’t look under skirts” Hanbin added and soon got hit on the arm, but finished talking nevertheless, “ouch, and third I wouldn’t mind even if you came in your pajamas to be honest."
Long story short, Hanbin dragged me around every game around there, an excited him and an ever so done me.
"Its about time we ride this” he said as soon as we stepped out of the spinning cups, me still stumbling to regain my balance. I looked up to where he was staring and my brain broke the emergency button. The roller coaster.
“No no no no wait wait no no look we’re NOT riding this” I told Hanbin as I tried to stop him from walking towards the game, which he seemed not to be bothered by at all. Gosh why the heck was he that built up.
“Why not” he simply replied.
“Because I’m so dying up there and you’re going to pay my funeral and tomb fees then get jailed after"
"Stop with the nonsense” Hanbin finally uttered after having enough of my whining, reaching the boarding platform.
I stopped at my tracks, “No I’m not getting in I swear Kim Hanbi–” I suddenly shrieked as Mister super gentleman literally held me by my waist and threw me on the chair, taking a seat immediately after to stop me from escaping. And I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t going to pass out at that moment. Not only because I was living my last few minutes before the ride started, but also because Kim Hanbin was so fucking touchy he needed a slap on the face, or someone to tie him to a chair and punch him, punch him multiple times. And the latter sounded more pleasant.
I would bet all of Steve Jobs’ money everyone was not only staring at us, but also judging, and thinking we were together. The last one didn’t sound too bad but it wasn’t true so it was the worst. If he did this to me I wonder what Mirae is facing..
“Oh fuck” I whispered as soon as the machine started advancing more and more towards the peak, tightly gripping on the railing as if my life depended on it; well, at some point, it did.
“WAIT I NEED A COUNTDOWN” I almost yelled to Hanbin since we were reaching the summit and everyone was screaming by that time and I sure as heck wasn’t ready for whatever was coming next.
“RULE NUMBER TWO: FORGET ABOUT ONE TWO THREE” he yelled back like a mad man and threw his hands in the air, a huge smile on his face as the machine took a dramatic shoot to the bottom.
I shut my eyes and screamed my lungs out.
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Exiting school me and Byungjoo walked side to side towards our houses, or at least that's what I thought until he put a hand over my shoulders And made us cross the road.
"Hey, let's go somewhere" he said as we marched across the street.
"Where" I asked, clueless. It's been some while since we went somewhere after school. Or even hung out on the weekends.
"you'll see, it will feel refreshing" he reassured.
Soon enough Byungjoo's palm blocked my vision and I got taken aback, "what are you doing, you're not kidnapping me right" I ranted and I heard him chuckle "what the hell is going on inside your head" he replied as he guided me forward to God knows where. But I didn't mind as long as it was only Byungjoo because even mom wouldn't question me being late if I was with him.
I squinted my eyes as soon as Byungjoo removed his hand and soon adjusted my vision to the light. a small smile tickled my lips as I stared at the place I knew very well..
"The playground" I muttered.
"Does this bring back any memories?"
"A lot of them" I replied and walked forward, Byungjoo trailing closely behind me.
This playground was where me and Byungjoo met for the first time, around thirteen years ago. And since that day we became like peanut butter and jelly, if I may put it like this.we stuck to each other the whole time, had our own games and even our very own secret hideout.
"Want me to push you?" Byungjoo offered after noticing me staring at the swings and I smiled at him. If there was anything I liked about Byungjoo it was the way he read my mind.
"Do you remember? We first met exactly here, and you were afraid to play with the other kids" Byungjoo said as I sat down on the swing and he started pushing me lightly.
"I wasn't scared! I was just waiting for one of them to get off so I can play myself!" I defended.
"But many hopped on and off and you just stood there keeping a safe distance" Byungjoo went on and my pout deepened
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'Should I approach them ? What if they refuse?' the little girl thought as she stood there watching the other kids swinging happily, immediately stepping forward whenever one of them got off yet soon retreating as another quickly gets on.
"Wanna play?" The girl turned to her left. There stood a child about her age and height, dark hair, big doe eyes and soft pink lips.
"E-Eung.." the girl almost whispered, nodding her head and soon hitched as the boy shouted, "Hey!! Let the girl play!!"
"Okay come here" the child on the swing got off and called.
"You'll have to push me later for this" the little boy said and she just nodded with an excited smile.
"I'm Byungjoo. What's you name!" Byungjoo exclaimed while pushing the girl on the swing Stronger every time.
"H-Hajin, my name is Hajin" she replied, louder than before as the boy's tone told her he was no harm.
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"Were you just watching the whole thing?!"
"Sure why not"
"Well you could've stepped up earlier!"
"See? You were really in need of a super hero"
"Tcheh.." I sighed, a smile never leaving my lips.
I missed this Byungjoo. I missed the cheerful playful Byungjoo. It felt like it's been a while since we had a conversation like this. It felt good. It felt refreshing.
We stayed in the playground for a longer time, playing, chatting, or just enjoying each other's presence. The playground was old and no kids played there anymore so we were pretty much alone. When it was almost sunset we walked back home.
"Thanks" I said as I accepted the chocolate milk box Byungjoo had just bought. He knew I'd accept chocolate milk anywhere, anytime.
"What about you" I asked as we resumed walking "
I gained some weight you see" he bluntly reasoned.
"Nonsense. You're still as thin as ever. I may weight more than you"
"Says the one who skips breakfast and has Digestive cookies for lunch" he replied and I gave him a sly smile to which he just chuckled.
"Thanks" I said as me and Byungjoo reached my house.
"For what" he replied.
"For the refreshing time" I answered with a small smile which he just mirrored and began to walk his way, never forgetting to tell me to "take care" as usual.
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"Hey"
it was Hanbin, "so I was being nice and decided to help you without you officially telling me to, you know, to spare you some of the awkwardness" he added as he casually marched closer to me.
"I was going to tell you though.." I murmured.
"When? Next century?" He amusedly replied.
"I really was, okay!"
"I know I know, you're that desperate" he said with a sly smile and I glared at him.
"Forget it. What kind of idiot was I to even think of your 'help'" I hissed and jumped off the short wall, ready to leave the rooftop.
"Hey hey come here I'm kidding" Hanbin grabbed me by the arm and pulled me back. Afterall, the 'wait' wasn't even a request since he practically shoved me back.
"I'm not done talking" he added in a more serious tone as he looked at me right in the eyes.
Suddenly his two hands landed on my shoulders and I found myself facing him. I gulped.
"I, Kim Hanbin, pledge to make this little hopeless little creature's days more bright and crazy"
"... uhm first I'm not little second can we skip the crazy part" I commented and he ignored me.
"And that will be starting..... tomorrow." He seriously announced, apparently too deep in his very own scenario.
"Tomorrow is Saturday what are you on" I scowled.
"Uhuh exactly," he stood up and faced me with his back. I raised an eyebrow,
"because you'll be," he turned back and we locked eyes.
"tutoring me" he finished.
"Huh?"
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I just realized I didn’t post this yet it’s been ages since I wrote it .___.
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"I feel saturated and.. I'm just sick of everything"
"Don't you think it's the right time for you to stop all of this" Hanbin asked in a serious tone and I looked up at him; clueless "You're destroying your own self as every second passes by. Just put an end to it. Who cares how you look or what you do? You're just you. Why would they judge you for being yourself? What is it that they have more than you that makes you think they're better? They're just them too. Not more not less. I think you're more jealous of the fact they manage to be themselves" he added in a matter of fact tone and I couldn't say that he wasn't right. "Because everyone's naturally cool, and then there is me, pretending to. All of them out there are pretty, cute, smart, perfect without even trying. And I'm just... I just want to experience that at least once" I didn't know what was it, but something made me spill everything in front of Hanbin. it's like he had some key to make me admit everything without feeling burdened or uncomfortable. "experience what" Hanbin asked, and I felt like he was trying to get something particular out of my mouth "being satisfied with myself for just one day" I replied honestly, avoiding looking at him in the eyes because his gaze was seriously tempting. Almost terrifying. As if he was warning me not to dare and lie to him. And I didn't. "what is your image of satisfying then" he insisted and I stayed quiet. This took me off guard. And I almost slapped myself after realizing I never really thought of this. "see? You don't even have an answer. You know why?" Hanbin sighed and I bit my lip, it felt more like he was scolding me, "look idiot, you might not believe me but I don't care. All of these girls you're claiming to be pretty and smart and other stuff I can't process, all of them, are envious of you for having these, all of them rant all day long about how nice your sense of fashion is whatsoever... and it becomes annoying sometimes honestly because I have no interest in all of this" he admitted "How do you even know" I grumbled, come on, he wasn't going to be this lame, was he? "Ahem, you're talking to Kim Hanbin here" He simply reasoned, as if his name was sort of FBI or some trusted source. But it made some sense since he was always around girls, and some even share their gossips with him. I sighed. "Some people just grow to be a contradiction of what they want to be. They become perfectionists. And their image of perfect is anyone else but them" "--And they end up suiciding or overtaking pills due to low self esteem" Hanbin interrupted. I looked at him and we locked eyes. "Bet you don't want to end up like this" I looked away. I wasn't going to end up like this. I totally wasn't. I was mentally capable enough not to harm myself. Hanbin was just bullshitting about the stories bandied about in newspapers. "Think about this" he finally said before he got up and left. - Days passed and I never talked to Hanbin after that, but his words were still stuck in my head. I kept thinking of all of what he said and it was quite uncomfortable. Because the more I thought of it the more I believed he was mentally unstable. Yet deep down inside a part of me knew he was right. And as much as I tried to deny it, I needed Hanbin's help, whatever it was. and that is how I found myself sitting on my desk waiting for everyone to get out to talk to Hanbin. When I was sure no one was inside the classroom except a sleeping Hanbin -which I didn't care about- I rolled my eyes once more at whatever stupid act I was about to do and marched my way towards his desk in the far end of the room. "Yah" I hesitantly called "Hmm.." was all what I got from the boy, he didn't even move a muscle. Tsk. I cursed under my breathe. As if this wasn't already hard enough. Frustrated I directed a kick towards his tibia and he jumped up from his seat, his head perked up to see who was it. Groaning in pain or more like whining like a toddler Hanbin put his head back on his desk, eyes closed. "Yah I need to talk to you" I said in restraint tone, hoping he'd notice my existence fully this time. "Just five more minutes.." Hanbin almost begged and I tried my best keeping in the back of my head how cute he sounded and how much I wanted to squeeze his puffed cheeks and--- okay. "Just five more minutes and I'd be halfway home" "Then just one.." he grumbled again and I rolled my eyes, he sure was in a whole other world. 4:34PM my phone indicated, "there, your minute passed" I informed Hanbin and he finally opened his holy graced eyes and lazily got up and leaned on his chair "What makes you wake me up this cruelly" a sleepy Hanbin murmured as he rubbed his eye "classes are done and you had to wake up anyways don't make me the bad guy here" I stated "Whatever, what do you want, and why are you talking to me in class" Hanbin questioned in full puzzlement and I realized we had never talked in class. It was like we were strangers when both of us stepped in. And I was weirdly glad he still treated me the same way, because I didn't want any of my classmates questioning shit. "Because no one is here, idiot. Look, I-I.. I have something to tell you" yes Hajin, what would you like to do else to make it sound more like a confession? Blush? Check. "What is it" Hanbin replied, more awake now "About what you said the other day. I was wondering if you... would you--" I halted as I heard someone opening the door wider and getting in. It was Byungjoo. And he eyed us both weirdly. Awkward. "What is happening here" Byungjoo asked, his tone curious and scary at the same time as he looked between me and Hanbin. "Nothing" I smiled up to him, "Don't forget to get your essay done by tomorrow Kim Hanbin, huh?" I randomly bluffed to Hanbin to make sure Byungjoo wasn't the least suspicious. Because as class president I had the authority to remind students of their homework, exam dates, and other boring stuff. "Let's go" I told Byungjoo and we both exited the room, with me ignoring the fact that Hanbin's gaze was digging holes against my back.
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Leaving the rooftop, Hanbin lead the way downstairs. "Yah Hanbin" I stopped at my tracks. My body froze just before turning to descend the left stairs as I heard a female voice calling. "oh, Mirae" I heard Hanbin say, I could distinguish the surprise in his voice, he was smiling awkwardly, I could guess "Where were you? What were you doing there?" The girl asked and I bit my lip and as my heart hammered inside my chest *please don't say anything stupid please don't say anything stupid* I repeated over and over in my head as I waited for the boy to utter a word for what seemed to be two eternities. What if he tells her? Ill be doomed. Goddamn doomed. "Just walking around, turned out it's locked up there" Hanbin casually answered and I mentaly sighed in relief, I had a hast urge to go up and hug him for being smart once in his life. "What are you doing here, go to class, hurry" I heard Hanbin say "Seems like you're ditching too so really" Mirae said through pouty lips "No my baby needs to study hard" the boy cooed and I rolled my eyes Eventually, Hanbin managed to shoo his girlfriend away without her finding out I was there. He cane back to the staircase after walking her half way to her classroom to find me leaning on the wall, arms crossed "You guys are quite disgusting" I said and heard him chuckle. Yes, I finally had the chance to say this. And no, I didn't regret that. "Girls love sweet talking" he replied as a matter of fact and I gave him a look. It hasn't been a long time since we started talking but I think he got the message that I wasn't too into that. "You're special okay" Hanbin added as he ascended the stairs till he was on the same one as me "You're still sweet talking" I replied in a tone, not annoyed, but way too done with this boy and his tongue. "Hey, you haven't eaten a thing" Hanbin said again and almost put a hand over my shoulder as we descended the stairs to the main hall. I couldn't believe this. This was just so wrong. Way too wrong. I was actually talking to Hanbin, I was almost getting close to him; my crush. Now this can't be true. And as much as I knew how unlucky I was, I was enjoying that although it won't probably last for long. "Are you even listening" I snapped out of my thoughts and found myself walking out the gates of school with Hanbin on my right side. I was looking more human by the time. "Huh?" Was all I could utter as I tried to process what was happening "I said let's go get something at the café nearby" hanbin repeated so casually that it didn't even sound wrong to my ear at all. "Uhh yeah, let's" I replied, trying to sound neutral as I we walked side to side further from school. So I'm technically having a date with Hanbin. Holy shit. Great now slap me for having that thought. the road to the coffee shop was rather short. We soon arrived and were seated on a table in the far inside of the shop. "I'll go get two hot chocolates" Hanbin said after putting his almost empty backpack down and headed to the counter, not even bothering to ask me what would I like to have, or even if hot chocolate was fine. What a gentleman. Hanbin soon came back with two large mugs, placed one next to me and took a seat as he put down his. he leaned back and gave me a look "Why do you look unamused" he asked, not really demanding "Haven't I always looked unamused" I answered as a matter of fact "do you really feel so" he paused then insisted again "Try and guess-" I replied after taking a sip of my drink "You get on my nerves" Hanbin chuckled and looked away in disbelief "Good" I commented with a smirk "Look who's finally in a good mood" he mirrored my smirk Ouch. That was a good comeback. He caught me off guard. "Not me" I chuckled "Yeah of course" Hanbin replied, amused and we both smiled as we locked eyes we left the coffee shop after and resumed walking, it wasn't really the perfect day to but well. Hanbin then stopped at a small hill by the riverbank and we both comfortably sat down; him laying even. It was a really beautiful place to relax. I stared at the peaceful water glowing under the still strong rays of the sun, as I felt Hanbin playing with strands o coaly black hair. maybe the fact that Hanbin came wasn't bad after all. "So.. back in the rooftop, would you like to tell me what made you sad now?" okay. I take that back. Frowning I sighed "did you have to ruin the mood now" "I'm just concerned" "I told you you didn't have to" "I just want to help goddamn it!" Hanbin finally snapped almost loudly and I looked at him. He sat up and look at me intensely ".... is that possible" he added and I sighed, resting my forehead on my knees, elbows supporting my head "I don't know... I just... I just don't know" And the next thing I knew is that I was crying. Again.
#8
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“Its okay, cry” Byungjoo almost whispered above my head “it’s okay to let out from time to time” he added I honestly had no idea how long have we been standing like this, but I couldn’t care less. It felt really good to cry against Byungjoo as his hand soothingly caressed my back in silence. I had tried to form a coherent sentence several times but ended up giving up as my sobs and hiccups took over and my brain was a whole mess. Gradually, my sobs silenced as I had enough from crying; I felt like my whole body drained and my head would explode at any moment then. The bell had rung a few moments ago but I couldn’t care less, I had History class and even when our teacher was good I was in no state to assist. After a few moments, Byungjoo detached his arms from me and ruffled my hair “Go home now okay? You need to rest and everything will be alright” he softly whispered, “I need to go now, my math teacher will skin me if I arrive later than this” he added and unwillingly stepped backwards. “Take care” Byungjoo finally said and left the rooftop. It felt good crying after all, I felt like I let out a bit. I had too much kept in, and it felt better to let out some. and as much as I wanted to pass out from the massive headache, I decided to stay more in the rooftop. The cold weather helped cool down my burning head, plus I couldn’t just go down the halls with this mess of a face. just as I started appreciating the silence and loneliness again, I could see a figure from the corner of my eye; a figure that soon halted his steps as he looked taken aback at what seemed to be my face, a figure that I immediately recognized. “Get out” I coldly muttered. This wasn’t the time for Kim Hanbin. This just wasn’t. “Whats wrong, hey don’t cry” hanbin said, almost sounding worried as his right thumb ran smooth against my red cheek attempting to wipe the remaining tears I had on my face. And as much as I would’ve appreciated his touch if I was in a good mood, it felt more than bothering at that moment that I found myself pushing his arm away, no eye contact made. I could feel Hanbin staring down at me for a moment before he awkwardly put his hand back in his pocket and sat next to me. “Bother to tell me what happened?” He asked again after some time “No” I simply replied, tone as cold as earlier. He just needed to leave. I was having a good time alone. Did he have to interrupt it “It’s not of you to ditch History. I mean, I was ditching that too but had other plans before I went past the classroom and didn’t see you there” Hanbin started again, he sounded too awkward and desperate to start a conversation which left me wondering why the heck did he even come to talk to me. “Why” I replied shortly again “Don’t I have the right to worry” Hanbin chuckled and said “No” I answered, finally looking at him after noticing his weird gaze towards me, “what are you looking at?” I confusedly asked “Are you even hearing yourself? You’re looking like a beaten squirrel, ditching classes, answering what I say with a single word or silence and tell me I don’t have the right to worry?” “BECAUSE NO ONE ASKED YOU TO” I finally snapped. Loudly. Holy shit I messed up. I fucking messed up. But guess what? I couldn’t care less. “Stop acting like you know me or anything!!” I added and I honestly think this is the first time I had spoken this loud to anyone. Well at least as far as I remember. “I told you to get out earlier” I said again, sounding more restrained “Alright.. ” Hanbin finally spoke up after staying quiet for a moment, and I would be lying if I said his tone didn’t frighten me. “I see then. But just saying, I won’t be leaving till you’re feeling better” he added, looking nowhere but at the ceiling and I almost snarled, fishing out my earphones out of my pocket and plugging them on. - I had no idea how much time passed and how long have I been staying here, around eight replays of my favorite song. But one thing was sure and it’s that Kim Hanbin was still sitting there. I slightly turned his way, giving him an aren’t-you-giving-up look when we locked eyes, to which he replied with a small childish smile and I rolled my eyes, looking away. What a kid. a few moments later and I got used to ignoring Hanbin’s existence, and he was nice for staying quiet which helped in so. I was totally sad, pissed, frustrated, I didn’t know what was it but I sure as hell wasn’t in a good mood, and I didn’t know why. I relieved stress with Byungjoo’s help, why was I still like this? Maybe I just need time to be alone then reboot. “Maybe you just need to play this” okay, did I just say that out loud? Because Hanbin was back to sticking to me again and this time, he extended his hand, showing me his phone. I glanced at the screen trying my best to ignore the fact that he was way too close to me that I could hear his excited breathing. It was a weird game full of colors, and there was this little white round bouncy thing in the middle of the screen, its numerous arms kept swirling around, it even had a face. I snickered “What’s this” I said and it didn’t even sound like a question, I was way too done with Kim Hanbin for having this sort of ridiculous game in his phone. “Just play alright, the instructions are in the screen” he urged and put the device between my hands “W-what are you doing” I said and almost hit myself for stuttering, but he just casually touched me so suddenly and I really wasn’t ready for it, I ducked my head down and pretended to be immersed in whatever was displayed in his phone. it was a weird game indeed, you had to move that bouncy thing by pressing left and right and dodge some black creepy round things which I guessed were evil by the way they were drawn. And in a matter of seconds I got so concentrated on the game as I got a hold of how it went. It was rather fun after all. “You’re doing well” Hanbin commented after watching me play for some time, sounding rather impressed “look, I died, happy now?” I made a face at him as my creature hit an evil one and died Hanbin extended his hand to retrieve his phone but I was quicker and yanked it away “Wait, I want to play more” I almost whined, as I tapped the Play button again “This thing is way too cute” I said between my chuckles as the white ball was so squishy and adorable, and as much as I was concentrated on the game, I didn’t fail to notice Hanbin actually creeping at me and not staring at the screen, and I honestly felt hella uncomfortable considering the fact that he was already too close. “Yay highscore!” I cheered as I made a new highscore in the game, satisfied by the fact that I scored better than him “Tell me the name of this game I’ll download it” I asked Hanbin as I handed him back his phone “You wish, I’ll only let you play it in my phone” he snapped and placed the device back in his pocket “Why? So you’d brag about MY scores to your friends?” I frowned “No, so I’d watch you fangirling ridiculously at it, you should’ve seen your face” hanbin simply answered and stood up. I bit the inner of my mouth as I averted his gaze, feeling blood rush up to my cheeks.
“Get up, you shouldn’t stay here more” he added and I did as told, Hanbin was right, it was getting cloder and the rooftop wasn’t really the best place to stay in. I followed behind Hanbin downstairs, making sure to keep a safe distance from him. - This had been in my notes for like a month and I was lazy to post it, it actually didn’t end up the way I wanted but well.
#7
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I bluntly walked home, mind in deep thoughts thus occasionally bumping against Byungjoo who was walking next to me. I knew he found it weird, but didn't talk. I was glad. Because I didn't want to talk about it too. Let alone to Byungjoo.
I've heard it this morning. It was about Hanbin. And I feel so stupid for not knowing this earlier. My whole life was a lie. Hanbin wasn't dating Nayoung. He wasn't. He fucking wasn't, for the love of God, why didn't I happen to hear this anytime before? He and Nayoung were just close friends. He was dating another girl though, another girl that the only thing I knew about her was that her name was Mirae; damn it. I didn't know her. Never saw her. Never heard of her. And I hated it.
Thinking Hanbin was dating Nayoung made me almost estimate his ideal type, someone like Nayoung; wavy hair, plump lips, petite height and cheerful spirit. However I didn't now this Mirae. How did she look like? How was her personality? Was she short or tall? Fair or tanned? Did she have big puppy eyes or--
"Hey watch out" I was brought back to reality when Byungjoo grabbed me by the wrist, moving me aside as I almost hit the pole. I seriously was so deep in thoughts to know where was I walking.
"Thanks" I muttered
"Pay attention to your steps okay?" Byungjoo replied and silence fell again
"Do you wanna talk about it?" He said again, not really demanding, but just friendly offering
"no" I replied, Byungjoo was the last person I'd tell about this, well, ahem, after Hanbin, but you get what I mean.
We parted ways as we reached my house, bid goodbyes and both went in..
"I'm home" I quietly muttered, enough for someone in the kitchen or the living room to hear.
Pushing the door to my room open, I threw my backpack somewhere and took off my uniform's jacket, throwing it also over the bed as I laid down.
I sighed.
I was tired. Mentally and physically. And I honestly felt so frustrated about Mirae. I was ready to hack into Hanbin's phone and know how did she look like. I was this pathetic. I'd never even try to deny.
I wanted to know how did she look like. I wanted to know what kind of girls did he like. And I was more than ready to change my style to that. Kill me. I was this insecure. I wanted to impress him so bad. I wanted to date him so bad. Yet look at this, I'm the girl whom he thought was quiet and shit like everyone did but now he thinks I'm bratty as fuck. Great.
Slipping under my blankets, I felt a lump forming inside my throat, and I knew what was coming next. My eyes got watery. My nose and cheeks felt hot and in few seconds I felt a drop of water sliding down my temple. I cried. A lot. I've always did. For ridiculous reasons. For nonsensical reasons even me didn't know. I was this lame. I made a big deal out of everything and in the end my anger and frustration would turn into tears.
After a while my eyes felt so heavy and my throat hurt from keeping my sobs silent, and I soon drifted to sleep. I couldn't care less if mom called me for dinner, I'd just tell her I was feeling queasy. And I was more than happy I didn't have homework because my head hurt way too much to deal with studies.
-
I woke the next morning looking dead panned. My eyes were way too puffy and eyeliner was everywhere; that’s what you get from sleeping with your make up on Kim Hajin. Washing up quickly I took a new clean uniform out of my closet, noting to myself to wash the other one that evening. Drying my hair had always been a pain in the ass because it gets so annoying and hard to tame however today I had no time to run a Straightener through it all so I just did my short bangs and secured the rest with a clip, today was going to be fucked up anyways.
I hoped make up would hide my puffy eyes as I put more concealer than usual and drew my liner down longer to give a puppy eye effect which would make the left appearing puffiness look natural, well, I hoped.
Messily finishing off I put my books in my backpack and hurried downstairs; Byungjoo was already bitching about how late it was. On our way I tried my best looking anywhere but at Byungjoo so he wouldn't notice, or else I have to go through a questionary. Mentally cursing, I remembered that I didn't bring my hoodie as it was cold and I was straight out of the shower. But well I already mentioned that this day was going to be fucked up.
-
It was reccess time and I went up to the roof again, Byungjoo's teacher didn't let them leave since they had a test so I was alone.
"Hey" I quickly turned and it was Hanbin. and I could swear this was the fastest I ever reacted to a call. Man he startled me. This is the first time I come here in recess time how did he know I'd be here? Or was he even searching for me?
"Hmm" I replied trying to sound as null as possible, that was my way of doing "seen" in real life.
"Is anything wrong" he asked as he walked closer
"you looked off" he added and I bitterly laughed, he actually noticed, but he was indeed funny.
"Everything is always wrong" I answered and I felt him staring at me longer than normal and I was getting a bit nervous.
"What's wrong with your eyes?" he asked again and I felt his cold hand against the apple of my right cheek. His touch sent a shiver down my spine and my heart pounded faster. I looked up at him. Shit he just noticed.
"Huh? What?" I tried sounding as clueless as ever
"What do you mean by what, you look like a beaten squirrel" he said, looking surprisingly concerned and I chuckled
"Hey, you really know nothing about make up. I just drew my tear line deeper today" I made up, sounding natural as I lied; I've always did. Yet I didn't expect him to notice, some of my classmates commented at it as antear line, why did he have to notice otherwise.
"Is that so? Alright" he bought my bluff and I mentally pumped my fist.
It was getting chillier and I saw myself getting sick tonight. And that was confirmed when I quietly sneezed and Hanbin looked as if he couldn't hold his laugh.
"Bless you" he muttered between his chuckles and I wrinkled my nose. My sneeze was always quiet and high pitched.
Soon enough Hanbin took of his hoodie and put it over my shoulders, pulling the big Hood over my head, it was reaching my nose so I was seeing nothing but I bet I looked ridiculous.
"Hey I'm okay" I pushed the Hood up enough to lock eyes with him
"Are you even talking back" he said and I stayed silent, taken aback of his reply. And it somehow reminded me of what happened with Byungjoo the other day, but Byungjoo had a reason. Or did Hanbin actually--
No.
No he didn't, Hajin. Hanbin left the roof and I trailed far enough behind him. I was screwed. I was way too screwed. What if his girlfriend saw me with this hood on? What was wrong with him? Was he intentionally putting in problems? I don't even know the girl so I'd hide from her, it might be any girl I don't know. I just hoped no one would notice the missing logo because I had the exact same dark gray hood but with a little V on the left.
Yet I felt my heart stopping for a moment as a girl walked into the classroom and her eyes landed on me for an unexpectedly long time.
"Mirae!" I heard Hanbin call and the girl took a longer look at me before she marched to the back the room.
I sighed in relief and that was when I realized I was actually holding my breath that whole time.
It was her, Mirae. I was sure now, she felt suspicious for a moment. Yet I didn't see her face. I was way too nervous that I kept my eyes glued to my desk, having nothing but a blurry vision of her skirt.
Oh well, guess matching Hanbin's ideal type will have to wait more.
#5
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“So this is where you vanish to lately” it was Hanbin. He had ascended the rooftop few minutes after I reached there. I had started spending more time here since me and Byungjoo came for the first time, I started liking this place so much, whether it was with or without Byungjoo’s company, I never failed to have lunch here everyday. But this wasn’t it, Hanbin was up here today, and he seemed quite interested in the fact of finally finding out where I’ve been going to. I let out a chuckle and gazed back at the typical gloomy cloudy sky of autumn. “What makes you care” I muttered, but he seemed to have a wide hearing range since he soon replied “Curiosity took the best of me” he simply stated, casually leaning on the a/c unit’s shade I always sat on, hands deep in his pockets. It was the same way Byungjoo sat but I especially found it attractive when Hanbin did it. Almost perfect. Yet so many questions lingered inside my head at that moment Why was he here? Why did he wonder where did I go? Why is he suddenly being comfortable around me? Why- Snap out of it Hajin, he already said it, curiosity took the best of him, don’t wander too far silly. “Shouldn’t you be having lunch now” I asked, not really waiting for a specific answer, I never did “Is this a dismiss” he chuckled “Take it however you want” I replied, never really making eye contact I turned to him, noticing he was staring at me for more than five seconds now “What?” I asked as he had an impressed look on. He let out a short laugh “Hey, are you really Kim Hajin?!” He bewilderedly questioned and I looked down at my uniform “Atleast that’s what my name tag says” I sarcastically answered “You’re actually acerbatic” he said, sounding fascinated by the discover. I almost slapped myself. Almost. But I mentally did though. This was Hanbin. My crush. And the guy I’ve always wanted to talk to. This wasn’t Byungjoo. My best friend. The guy that I can be opened to. What am I doing? Basically wasting my chance with him. Impressive. I didn’t know how it worked, maybe I felt weirdly way too comfortable with him that I could easily show him my real side. Maybe I was just so confused on how to attract him that I fucked it up being sarcastic. Maybe I thought being bitter would make him interested in me. Either ways Hanbin was probably judging me hard right now yet I didn’t care at all for unknown reasons. “Took you long enough to figure out” I murmured “Why do you put on that mask then” I didn’t answer. In fact, I didn’t have an answer. I didn’t know what to say. Hanbin asked such a question my brain stopped functioning. What was the use of this fake behavior. A part of me knew, but another didn’t. “It just… worked out like this. I became the Kim Hajin everyone knew, and burried the real me away” “Why” “You don’t ask why Hanbin. Everyone had issues in their lives that led them to certain decisions” He paused. “..Are you happy like this” I stayed silent. Kim Hanbin had the ability of making my mind a total mess in a span of a nanosecond. I never hesitated answering any question. Never. Yet look at me now, all pathetic for one. “As long as I’m following the standards, I am” The bell rang. And be honest I was more than glad to go and study Physics, mark this as a historical event please. I won’t deny that I’ve always wanted to talk with Hanbin at least for a short while, but now I’m desperate to escape. Hanbin asked precise questions. As if he knew everything. As if he could see through me. And I wasn’t sure if I was feeling comfortable or not, because as much as his questions made me feel fidgety, I was able to maintain my genuine attitude in front of him, I wasn’t building up an image in front oh him, I broke my walls in front of him. And I wasn’t sure if that was a good thing or not. “Aren’t you assisting” I asked as I jumped off the brick shade, ready to leave “I don’t think so, I don’t feel like physics” Hanbin casually answered and I took that as a no, heading downstairs “Hey” I stopped, gazing at him from behind my shoulder “You’re interesting, try to talk more” I chuckled “I won’t promise a thing” I replied as I proceeded my way.
So it was a good thing in the end.
#4
He sat at the back of the class, earphones plugged and not a single shit given about the world. I didn’t really mind. I sat on the first table by the door and was class president. I had a bad habit of leaning my back on the wall not my chair so I technically had a perfect view of him; if only he wasn’t sleeping with his blazer over him the whole time or not even attending class. He was a bit taller than me, as I was a somehow tall girl myself, oh well I didn’t really mind this too, why am I even mentioning that. Many girls were probably envying my perfect spot and would pay me to take that desk. Lets face it though, he had a girlfriend, I mean come on, he looked like it. But he also looked like a player, I mean let me reformulate that; he knew he was good looking, and the fact that he thought every girl would be fawning at him with a glance annoyed the shit out of me, because he keeps staring holes into me, probably expecting me to care, but I didn’t, hell why would I, I don’t boys that’s a first, second I’d rather die in a dirty hole than be interested in him, yet he didn’t like it, he wanted me falling for him and I knew it, his arrogant self wouldn’t let him sit and watch how Kim Hajin ignores his existence while the rest of girls were all over him. Kim Hanbin just didn’t know how different I was.
I’m usually lonely on lunch time, well let’s face it, I’ve always been alone in everything, funny isn’t it? I didn’t really mind. And I slowly grew comfortable to the silence. It was my best friend, and I almost hated when someone interrupted that, probably one of my classmates “kindly” offering the quiet shy girl company, giving a famous “why are you sitting alone?”. It was because I enjoyed being alone the most, I enjoyed silence’s company the most. Silence was nice. You could always talk to silence. Yet it would never judge you. Music was nice too, I liked music. Ballady hip hop. Yes I didn’t look like it. I looked more like someone who’d listen to Barbie songs honestly. but well they say what you show is not always what you hide. People thought I was quiet because I disliked them, was complexed or just because I only minded my studies, I don’t blame them though. I actually disliked them all anyways. no one was worthy as a friend. But come on let’s be honest; I don’t even see the use of having a friend, I mean I can manage alone. I’m pretty fine alone. I am totally in no need of fake human beings by my side that act nice in front of me. And I’m also in no need of calling them my friends just because I saw them five days a week. I was growing annoyed of the fuss in the classroom. I was the type to pack a few snacks and have them for lunch in the classroom while others ate in the canteen. That place was way too crowded and noisy for me. However today was different, we had a math test this afternoon and so, many of my classmates stayed in class to “study”; Our teacher was strict as a clock. And no matter how much I tried ignored the girl that sat behind me calling my name around ten times now, she wouldn’t shut up and I was ready to shove a knife into her eyes, too bad I didn’t have one. Sorry not sorry for being sadistic. But that girl annoyed me; not like everyone didn’t. She was new, and probably didn’t know me well. Although they found it weird, my classmates grew used to me being in my own world, and never really bothered to talk to me between periods or when I’m having my earphones on, hell they wouldnt even dare, but I see she didn’t get it yet, well I hope she does before I get jailed because of her. Having enough I quietly got up and placed my backpack on my chair before pushing it under my desk; no one dared to touch my stuff so I didn’t really mind leaving it there. “Hajin are you okay? You actually got up!!” One of my classmates exclaimed, as if she just realized I actually had legs. Well I was known for not leaving my desk since I come in the morning unless a teacher told me to do something. I saw no need in wasting my energy, my classmates got up between every period, roaming around or peeking from the door to check if the teacher came. I gave her a small smile before secretly scowling at Hanbin and his girlfriend at the back of the classroom, hands intertwined and mirrored cheesy smiles. They were the definition of disgusting, oh well, not like he didn’t intertwine hands or initiated skinship with other girls. I wonder how his girlfriend is okay with that, or if she does even know. On the other hand I was kind of surprised how my classmates easily bought my fake smiles. I mean wasn’t my cold attitude obvious enough? Poor kids, thought I was the pink angel. I headed out of class, no where to go in precise. I just needed somewhere quiet, which was hard to find by the moment because you’d probably find a couple by each classroom. Ew. I looked once more at those stairs and halted my steps. Should I go? They lead to the rooftop, I had no idea how it looked like but I was hella sure it’d be quiet up there and that it’s going to be nice. Thinking twice I resumed walking. I was a coward, who am I kidding? I never took risks because I was a coward, I always followed the rules because I was a coward, I never talked to my classmates because I was a coward. I was afraid of rejection, afraid of people, of their judging, their deadly stares and terrifying whispers. I let my insecurities overcome my likes. I was a weak person, I knew it, yet I did nothing about it. I let my weakness control me, I let people’s opinions manipulate my life. Kind, nice, shy, studious; that’s what they thought I was; no. Thats what they wanted me to be. Mute, insecure, antisocial; that’s what I saw myself as, after trying to match their expectations. It wasn’t that people didn’t dare to talk to me when I’m with my earphones on. It wasn’t that they didn’t dare to touch my belongings just because they were mine. It was that they didn’t care, I wasn’t important, I was nothing, and I knew it. I was afraid of Hanbin too. I wanted to impress Hanbin and I knew it. I liked him. Yet I kept fooling myself that I didn’t, that I was cool enough to not care about any boy, that I was just different and he wasn’t my style, that I really didn’t want him to be interested in me and get close to me like my other classmates. Hanbin didn’t want me to fall for him, he didn’t even care about my existence. I was jealous of them and I knew it. Why are those girls close to him and I’m not? Why does he initiate the talk with them but never talks to me unless I was the only one in class and he needed to ask about a teacher? I really liked Kim Hanbin and I more than knew it. Yet the weak person I am told me to shut up and deal with it. I knew I had a chance of getting of close to him, what was easier than starting a conversation with Hanbin? Maths? Physics? Building a jackpot? Well everything was easier for me than that. I was going to finish my last year in high school crushing on Hanbin without anyone knowing but silence, yet guess what? I knew it.
#2