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Fasting Day

Alright so I’m doing 36-48 hour fast starting today. I wanted to fast yesterday but a close friend of mine made me eat. So here is my plan for the day : vitamins with 36 ounces water -9 am 11am green tea 1 pm 12 ounces water 2 pm rest of vitamins 3pm small workout - (20 squats 20 lunges 40 jumping jacks 2 minute run 5 minute walk) 6 pm 24 ounces water 8 pm calming tea

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today i was told i was taking to much food. it felt like a stab in my stomach because i was taking a piece of watermelon. did the person that said that mean i didn’t need to eat anymore food than she thinks i do? probably, i just want to be skinny. :(

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I’m sorry you’re here, I’m sorry you had to read this, I’m sorry you’re doing this to yourself, I’m sorry that girl called you fat in year 6, or your dad told you you needed to lose weight when you were 10, I’m sorry you felt their stares like knifes in your back, or you cried in the toilets alone at lunch, I’m sorry you had to deal with that shit you haven’t told anyone about, or you’re still affected by the trauma no one else understands, I’m sorry you feel lonely, or empty inside, Im sorry you stay awake all night, or spend the day waiting for it to end, I’m sorry your life didn’t turn out as planned, or you feel it’s not worth living anymore. If there’s one thing my abuser did, it was make me say sorry for shit I didn’t do, I know I didn’t do any of these things to you, but I’m just so fucking sorry.

me: I should have some food

stomach: no

thighs: no

wrists: no

ribs: no

cheekbones: no

fingers: no

collarbones: no

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“I was leaving my apartment one day and someone I’ve known for a long time, my moms age, said to me, ‘Oh, wow, look at you I tried to explain I had lost weight for a role and she goes, 'No! want to know what you’re doing, you look great!” I got into the car with my mom and said, “That is why the problem exists. Lily about her "To The Bone” Role

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reasons to be skinny

- people saying “how did you lose so much weight?” -your mum never calling you fat again -knowing that if the people who made fun of you could see you now they’d be stunned -the people who thought you were ugly now want to date you (but you know you’re too good for them, so they stand no chance) -being able to go into any shop and not worry they don’t have your size; even if they don’t go as small as you are, you can still find something cute and baggy instead -wearing tight clothes that don’t show rolls of fat -being able to hold yourself with confidence -throwing out ugly old clothes and buying cuter, smaller ones -going somewhere new and knowing that no one around you knew you when you were fat -not being scared to step on the scale -telling people your weight with pride in stead of fear -being proud of yourself

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Alphabet Workout & Digital Clock Workout

(these workouts are not mine, i just found them online)

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Being skinny isn't just for photos.

Imagine walking down the street or down a hallway and having your thighs breeze past each other without touching. It will be flirtatious, and in the spring all the wind and flowers will just float right through the gap in your thighs. The way you walk will be graceful. Like a delicate angel, a perfect nymph that glides instead of stomps.

Imagine in summer when the aqua waves lap around your waist and nearly knock you over. Your flat waist will be perfect for holding when your friends or family toss you easily into the air and then into the cool water. You’ll wear a bikini proudly, any bikini you want. You’ll feel more comfortable tanning like a goddess when your stomach doesn’t roll around without you doing anything.

Imagine when as Autumn sets in and you think of your crush wrapped in a blanket with you, watching a scary movie together. His hand reaches around you and he can actually touch your other shoulder. He won’t be disgusted with the flab hanging off your limbs like dead weight. And if you’re skinny enough, he may even kiss you.

Imagine being perfect even in winter. While everyone else looks like walking marshmallows in their coats and scarves you’ll still be as small and delicate as the snow falling onto your hair. You will be able to leave little to no footprint in the snow, and they will all see you as a light little bird gliding across the blizzard.

Being skinny isn’t just for pictures. It’s for living without chains that hold you back by the skin, preventing you from having joy in your life. It doesn’t matter when season it is, there is always something that will be better if you are skinny. So don’t give up. And lose that weight.

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ok so my legs are super crooked what the heck Xp

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(Abt the I'm not important post) This may sound weird coming from a person you don't know.But you mean the world to anyone and you might fell like that's not true but it really is.In sorry I just wanted to say that.❤❤❤❤

This is incredibly touching thank you 💙 it’s not weird at all it’s actually… like very nice, to know that even when everyone around me makes me feel like shit there’s strangers with open arms for me