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I just did my 24 hour fast yesterday and it was so good :0 What works for me is to have dinner nad then wait until dinner the next day because then I already sleep for a good chunk of it and am not rlly a breakfast person. Thus, I easily get to 12 to 14 hours. Then I just went to my classes and stuff and managed to get to 7 PM

If you'll feel too guilty eating it, don't.

I was pissing my bf off for the giggles, and he was like "yk I'm gonna go get lunch later, right? What if I eat your food before I get home."

He was obviously joking, but he doesn't know that I acc wouldn't mind lmao. An excuse to skip the meal

Hearing someone else say "I'm not hungry" while I'm eating floods me with guilt and kills my appetite. Every time.

this!!! I often compare myself to others and can't hepl but get caught up in certain things i see online or w my friends. I still gotta remember that this is my journey and issue to deal with, and that the way someone else functions shouldn't decide mine

hey babes just wanted to say that you aren’t in a competition, actually you have an eating disorder which is a mental illness which is hard and sad and dangerous, and to maybe remember that and be kind to yourself even when you feel like you are failing at it okay because it’s not something you fail at and binging is just another symptom of your disordered relationship to food

15 hours into a fast, omw to 24 >:)

Although I ate more today, I feel like I'm doing a good job managing my cravings.

Like yeah, I ate, but I felt less the need to f.e. have a dessert or eat food. Maybe fasting isn't for me necessarily, but if I keep controlling my cravings, I think I'll do well.

Nobody:

My brain throughout the day

how long have you been fasting for?

how many calories are you gonna eat today

how many calories have you burned

why don't you move more

why do you eat rn?

that's too many calories

don't eat don't eat don't eat

try to fast a bit longer

maybe we should eat so we don't pass out

why can't I just be skinny

fatass

why'd I eat that

I ought to force myself to fast for logner

Do I deserve this?

ugh why does he have to come over again, don't make me eat

thigh gap

why are my thighs/belly so big

I wish I was thinner

i hate being so wide

I wish I was a bit thinner, a little bit quicker, a lil bit more balanced.

Can't wait to be skinny enough to not feel like I'm embarassing my friends while I'm hanging out with them, or when they introduce me to their parents.

My friend accidentally projecting/making comments regarding my body lowk sucks lmao. I know she doesn't mean ill but sometimes the way she says things kinda get to me.

I wish I was a pickier eater

After dealing w a b.e.d. for years and now having trouble w how I view myself (and dealing w restricting), it's so hard to resist binging sometimes.

gang i used an app and if i eat around 700 cals everyday until my bday, I'll get to 60kg (130lbs). It's not my GW, but still a solid way better than were I'm at now

why do my parents have to love food so much

too bad I hate throwing up and i'm too much of a pussy to do it to myself

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I have a friend who's (naturally?) really skinny and she was telling me abt how she sometimes gets bruises from resting on wooden/metal chairs. I WISH I had that struggle.

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"on today's episode of how fucked up is fucked up"

I wanna become so deep in the £d rabbithole that I can't function properly and people notice my weight loss

what's the big deal with eating anyways. It's tasy, yeah, but why should my life revolve around it

I'm gonna vomit, I'm seeing my friend next friday and she can't see me so fat

I'd rather be called skin and bones than a whale

I'm not saying that ppl who are naturally skinny don't have their own struggles, but you can't convince me that you don't have it easier than ppl with slower metabolisms.

Whys everyone so obsessed about food? If they just stop talking about it and insisting we go eat, I'd have an easier time losing weight

I'm such a pig

I literally can't handle this anymore, I'm going back to my dorm today and I'm literally not gonna eat until I literally can't keep going anymore. I'm so sick of my body and everything going on in my life rn.

the fun part in an £d and being overweight is that I can lose somebody's entire weight and still be fine. People would congratulate me.

Things I'm looking forward to

Thin arms

Thin thighs

Smaller hips where you can feel my bones better instead of fat

Smaller belly

Slimmer face

Looking more elegant

Looking good in jeans