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fall thinspo clothes

🍁 thigh high socks

🍁 oversized hoodies/sweaters

🍁 big knitted jumpers

🍁 boyfriend jeans

🍁 plaid/black skirts

🍁 shorts with tights

🍁 big flannels

🍁 hoodie/sweater dresses

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FAT

Age 6

I was called fat by a boy a year older than me I wasn’t even fat then I cried all night when I found out what ‘fat’ meant

Age 7

I had a crush on one of my best friends He always told me that I wasn’t fat He even once sat in a way to make it look like he had rolls in his stomach so that I didn’t feel bad

Age 10

I stepped on a boy’s toe by accident He asked how much I weighed out of anger I didn’t say anything Too ashamed to admit that I weighed 67 kilograms

The boy that called me fat when I was 6 was right I am fat

Age 12

I absolutely hated myself I weighed near 80 kilograms Somehow the boys seemed to be kind to me Everyone were It felt strange

Age 13

I’m a teenager now I need to be perfect I wasn’t close to it I never kept track of my weight

Age 14

I hit 100 kilograms by February I hated my body a lot It made me depressed

Do you know what I do when I’m depressed? I eat And eat And eat And I don’t stop

Age 15

I hit 120 kilograms Disgusting If February I turned to Tumblr I discovered ‘Ana’ I lost a few kilograms But I didn’t have enough self control and gained it all back

Age 16

I went back to Tumblr I rediscovered ‘Ana’ I made a commitment I had hit 130 kilograms before I started I started counting calories I exercised two hours a day I fasted often I lost weight

Age 17

I’m back to 80 kilograms I feel amazing I look so much better My mom and dad are so proud My uncle even took me shopping for new clothes

Age 18

I’m was close to 60 kilograms in January I had to lose more Ana told me it was best I believed her

Age 19

I often pass out I’m pale I’m bony I’m in the 40’s now But it’s worth it I look beautiful Dainty Ethereal Small

Age 20

I practically live in the hospital My BMI is much lower than my age My organs are failing I’m dying But it’s all worth it Right? At least I’m not fat anymore 

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Don’t stop until you’re proud.

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Reblog if you're not eating for the rest of the day.

I rb this a lot

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today i was told i was taking to much food. it felt like a stab in my stomach because i was taking a piece of watermelon. did the person that said that mean i didn’t need to eat anymore food than she thinks i do? probably, i just want to be skinny. :(

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Fasting Day

Alright so I’m doing 36-48 hour fast starting today. I wanted to fast yesterday but a close friend of mine made me eat. So here is my plan for the day : vitamins with 36 ounces water -9 am 11am green tea 1 pm 12 ounces water 2 pm rest of vitamins 3pm small workout - (20 squats 20 lunges 40 jumping jacks 2 minute run 5 minute walk) 6 pm 24 ounces water 8 pm calming tea

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5 minutes goes by slower than a whole day

You’ve noticed it right? Five minutes feels like forever but a day doesn’t. So if you can get past a five minute craving, the days will pass just like that.

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I can almost fit my hand around my upper arm btw!

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motivate me!

1 like - 5 squats 1 repost - 5 jumping jacks 1 follow - 5 sit ups (I will tally them up and do them daily) Thank you to anybody who helps!